The Pregnancy

Chapter 23

"Yes Kelli the very same Lindsey! But honestly I shouldn't be mad because I had Niall over but I don't know. Tell me why I'm mad please?" I asked hoping she would all of a sudden give me ALL the right answers.

"Alex, I honestly can't give you the right answer to this one, but I can try. Listen to your heart. What is it telling you?" She asked as I tried to do that but I couldn't quite come up with anything so I shook my head instead. "Try to force your mind not to jump in the way, not to overpower your heart. Try to not let your conscience get in the way of what will truly make you happy. Take some time for yourself, figure out what you need before you go and try to figure out which boy you want." Wow Kelli really knows how to give advise.

"I wish it were that easy though. My heart says I want them both and I never know what I need for myself. I never get the chance to put myself first. It's always what would be best for the band, what would be best for Luke to further his career. Never what would be best for me and my career, even though I don't have one. And maybe if I would have put myself first from the start I would have one, but it's too late now because in less than nine months it will be all about what's best for the baby." This is way to deep of a conversation for me, especially for this early in the morning, and because I'm sober. Deep conversations are not my thing at all!

"Well, honestly to me it sounds like you should give Niall a chance. Maybe it will work out for you guys, maybe it won't. You will never know unless you try. Maybe when you give Niall a chance you will realize that Luke really was the right choice. But I know Niall is willing to love another mans baby like it were his own. He's ready to be a father and it's not even his own kid. I know that Luke isn't ready to be a father and it's his own son/daughter in there. I honestly NEVER wanted to tell you this, but now that I've seen how happy Niall can and will make you I know that I have to." I honestly do not think that I will want to hear this.

"Am I going to cry? Should I get tissues and get comfortable in bed where I will have to stay almost all day?" I asked joking around hoping she was just exaggerating on how serious this thing she was about to tell me actually was. But Kelli nodded. Her not saying anything made me know that this isn't a joke.

"Okay are you ready?" She asked when I finally got comfortable in bed. I nodded with tissues in hand and waited for her to continue. "Alright so that night when you were in the hospital Luke stepped out of the room and was on the phone with his mom over by the bathroom. Wow this is a lot harder then I thought. Alright so I heard him telling his mom about the miscarriage and she must have been freaking out because he was calming her down and telling her how there was two babies and how you only lost one of them. And here is where is starts to get harder to tell and harder to hear then before. Get your tissues ready please. He told his mom something awful that I will never be able to forget... He said and I quote 'Although I wish she had lost both. Mom I HATE kids! I never wanted one in the firts place and now I'm stuck and forced to have one. What am I supposed to do?' Alex I know that's hard to hear but I will always ALWAYS be here for you. For whatever you need, I promise."

"Thank you for telling me but you gave me all I needed to hear. I now know my answer and I will forever be in debt to you for that. But I think I need to be alone. At least for now, for a few hours. Please. But I need you to come back around 4:00  to help me get ready for this date! I haven't been on a date in a long time. I could use all the help I could get!" She nodded and respected my wishes. She gathered her things and left.

Okay I need to call Luke and find out if any of this is true. "Hello?" Luke sounded annoyed that I called.

"I have a few questions I need to ask you. Can we meet please? Go for lunch or something?" I asked desperately hoping he would agree to this.

"Can't this wait? I'm kind of busy with band stuff." He said harshly blowing me off.

"Listen Luke you need to realize that me and this baby are more important than this band is. Now with that said do you have something you need to tell me?" I asked hoping he would confess that he never wanted this baby.

"Just because you want my attention Alex, doesn't mean I can drop everything and give it to you. Like I said earlier in busy with the band." That's it, I can't take this anymore.

"Did you tell your mom you wish both our babies had died?" My tone was anything but nice. In fact it came out more of a hiss than anything.

"Who told you that?"

"It doesn't matter who told me Luke! Answer the question. Did you or did you not tell your mother you never wanted this kid and you wish it died along side with its sibling? And don't lie Luke if I have to I will call your mom and ask her. And unlike you, your mother would never lie to me over something so important. So answer the question." I was starting to get really irritated with him not just confessing that he was in the wrong. Confessing that he wished our child was dead.

"Alex, you know I hate kids. Do you honestly think that this child was really going to change that? Alex I love you, with all my heart I really do, but I was hoping you would realize that we are both way to young to be parents, and I don't know give the kid up for adoption."

"Yeah Luke I thought that this baby would change your mind. I thought that once you held your little boy or your little girl in your arms you would love this kid more then anything. That you would do anything for this child. You would sacrifice more then you're willing to sacrifice for me for this child to be happy. But you know what Luke I guess I was wrong. Don't come home tonight. We need some time apart to think about this. As of now the engagement is off." I hung up the phone not wanting to hear his voice again. How could I be so stupid to think he could change. That this baby would change him.

I sat in bed for awhile to angry to think of anything but how mad I was at Luke. That's when I realized I needed a distraction. "Hello? Yeah it's me. I was wondering if you would come over now and keep me company?"

"No problem I'll be there in 10 minutes."

"Alright see you then."

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First and foremost I want to say that this is fiction. I know Luke would never do that to anyone but this is my character Luke not the real one.

Anyways what did you guys think? Let me know by commenting or liking this chapter. Every little feedback helps!

Any idea on who was on the other end of the mystery call? Was it her night in shining armor? Her loyal best friend? Or was it a new pawn to this game?