The Pregnancy

Chapter 28

   LUKE'S POV

"Calum hurry up I'm hungryyyy." Ashton whined as we were on the way to Olive Garden. I don't know how we aren't sick of this place yet. We go here at least once a week, maybe even more. I swear all the employees know us by name and could probably tell you our top five orders. "Seriously Luke what is your problem today? It's like you found out someone ran over your puppy or something." Ashton said nudging me against the car door. I couldn't help but look out the window as if I were in a sad music video.

"Yeah it was something like that." I muttered to myself. I lost her this time, I was overwhelmed, said something stupid, and lost her. No I didn't want this baby, but maybe after it was born, maybe I could get attached or something. Maybe, if she just gave me a chance. "I think I'm just hungry." I said looking over at Ashton with a fake smile. "Yeah, that's it. I'm just hungry." I said as we pulled up to Olive Garden.

"Well cheer up because no one is allowed to be sad at Olive Garden." Ashton said trying to jump out of a moving car.

"Wait Ashton. Can I talk to you quick?" I asked as he turned around and saw my face and knew something was up. He nodded and walked back over to me. "We will meet you guys in there." I said smiling at the rest of the boys. "Umm, okay, so you probably aren't going to like this but you are my best friend so I'm going to tell you anyways. Kelli overheard me telling my mom that I hate kids and that I wish they both died. She must have told Alex because now Alex won't even look at me and she told me not to come home tonight. Even worse, she told Niall and honestly I don't know if this will affect us going on tour with them. You saw how they all got attached to Alex, they all love her. I'm sure Niall will tell them and we won't be able to go on tour with them because of the nasty things I said that I didn't mean. Ashton I am so sorry." I said trying not to cry.

"Luke, I'm sure she knows that you didn't mean it and she just wants space. That's all I can think about. She loves you, I know she does. Niall isn't petty like that I'm sure he will keep it to himself, even if he does tell the other boys, I'm sure it won't affect us going on tour with them. Like Niall said we don't have to see them, they don't have to see us. Now calm down, we will talk about this when we get home. But right now I need to go eat. Let's go find the other guys." Ashton said half jogging into the restaurant.

I hope he's right, I hope that I didn't just fuck it up for all of us. The boys will never forgive me if I screw it all up. They can't know about this. I thought as I walked in to find them in the corner laughing and having a great time talking about the tour. I can't ruin that conversation right now. I need to go to the bathroom and pull myself together. I thought to myself as I started walking to the bathroom. Wait that guy looks familiar, is that.... "Niall? Is that you?" I asked turning around and seeing him sitting there by himself. I sat down on the other side of the booth. There is a glass of water here so obviously he didn't come alone. "Are you here with Alex?" I asked not wanting to know the answer.

"Luke.... You shouldn't be here. Alex doesn't want to see you right now." Niall said looking from me to the bathroom. "You really should go eat with your friends. We will just forget that all this even happened. I won't tell anyone what you said, that's between you and Alex." Niall said with a pitty smile.

"You really do care about her don't you?" I asked as tears were threatening to push out. "So do I. More than you know. She's my everything, my family, my whole world. Please, just give her back to me." I begged hoping he would sense the pain in my voice. Hoping that he would understand I didn't mean anything I said about the baby. "That's my baby she's carrying, my legacy, my chance to pass on my family name. Niall you don't understand, I love her and that baby. I was angry and confused I never meant anything that I said. If she wants to be with you that's fine, but I want her to know she has an option to come home, to come back to me. I want her to tell me, to look me in the eye, and tell me she doesn't love me anymore. I want her to mean it. And if she does choose you, I want you to make sure she is always happy, make sure she never questions if you love her, make sure she feels wanted and desired. Promise me that. Promise me that if she chooses you, you will protect her and never let feel bad about herself. Can you do that for me Niall?" I asked wiping away the tears that had escaped. I can't believe I am crying in front of him like a little bitch baby. Man up Luke. Keep it together.

"Luke, you have nothing to worry about. I won't hurt her at all. I'm like you, she's my everything. If she chooses me you can still be in the babies life, you are the babies father Luke. I'm not here to take your place with the baby. I swear to god I'm not. I don't want to do that, I would never do that. But if she chooses you that's fine. I just want her to be happy, but honestly I just want her to be happy with me. I've never felt like this with anyone before, I can honestly see us having a future Luke. But like I said if she wants you, she wants you. I'm not going to stand in the way of that. But if you are going to have any chance with her you need to do as she asks and just give her some space. I know you think I'm just saying this so I can have the advantage, but you need to give her time to stop being so angry, then you can come and apologize." Niall said as I heard footsteps walking up to our table. This is it, I need to compose myself so she can't see that I was crying.

I can't help myself I have to say something. I turned around so I would be facing her and I gave her an angry look, she can't know that I was crying, I don't want her to think I'm not a man. "So this is why you didn't want me coming home tonight?"

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I would have updated earlier in the day, but I'm not going to lie I couldn't stop watching American Horror Story. It took forever to write this because I am watching it as I am writing this. I keep rewatching it so obviously I'm obsessed. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Also just wanted to throw it out there that my dog continued to eat the damn chair again this morning, so if anyone was thinking about getting a puppy anytime soon I'd advise you not to because they will eat your furniture!