The Coffee Guy BoyxBoy ( #Wattys2016)

Chapter 50

MIKE'S POV

The first thing I heard when I woke up was Emily's voice. It was so hars for me to breathe wven tho I had mask on my face to help me. I concentrated on my breathing and just muted Emily. I didn't want her to be here now. I wanted my big fluffy bear ro be beside me and hugging me. I was blushing everytime I was thinking about how warm and soft he is. He was keeping warm and of course burning the Hell out of me on the same time. I don't know if he would come. I made such a stupid thing. Like I always do. I was just too dizzy to go and take out Akihiko and myself. The gravity won the game again. The house is gone. Where we gonna live now? I mean me, we aren't together anymore. In that moment when he started shouting I wanted to cry, but I choose to be strong and shout too. I'm so afraid of the real shouting and screaming. It  makes me cry almost everytime.
"You just want that jerk, don't you Mike?" I heard her saying but I couldn't talk to reply to her. She was on a ponytale and sports bottom with a shirt. I'm still wondering how she knew that I went in hospital.
"I'm going to call him. You take a rest" - she said and got out of the room. I fell asleeo faster than I can even remember.

"...and he just got mad and said it was my fauth?! Can you believe it!! Oh, Mike you're awake"
I was seeing blurry figures in the beginning but then my vision gor clear and saw Alex sitting next to me and Emily was standing next to him, not that close to me.
"I'm just gonna leave you talk. Oh, God I won't tell anyone I promise because if Josh hear this he'll littarely die dead"
"What do you mean?" - Alex asked but he was still looking at me
"Um, nothing. He's weird and yeah. Bye Mickey"
Hearing the door closing made me really nervous. I started breathing hardly and got up a bit hoping I'll return to my normal breathing.
"Should I call the doctor??" - Alex got up from his seat ready to go. I shaked my head for "no" and just stayed like this for some minutes while Alex watched me and then layed back.
"Does it hurt still?" - he asked with low voice and he looked really worried. His hair was really messy and he was looking tired - " you have scars on this hand"
He made circles with his finger around the scars and I was just watching him.
"I'm so sorry for saying those things. I really didn't know what I was thinking. You had the right to shout at me too since I did it first. My heart broke when I did it, I'm sorry. I won't do it ever again, Mike."
I moved my hand to take his and on that exact second the doctor came which scared Alex and got up quickly
"Damn my leg!" - he closed his eyes and finally saw his knee. It had bandage all over it and he looked like he is in pain.
"We got news for the cat and you need to rest this leg, sir" - the doctor said and pointed at Alex's leg.
"How's the cat"
"It's feeling really good, everything's fine with it. No worries." - he smiled at us.
"What about Mike?"
"Um, well. He is really good, breathing will be hard in the begging but everythings going to go back to normal soon. But there are other thing's that I worry about and you probably too, I-"
I quickly got up and sat on my butt trying to ens this conversation they're about to have. I got tears in my eyes because it hurt so much.
"What's going on Mike? " Alex sat again on the chair next to me and helped me lay back again. I put my hand in the air and moved my finger trying to say to the doctor to stop talking. He took a deep breath.
"We will talk when he can too. It won't be fair"
"What do you mean? Did something happened?"
The doctor left the room.

I remembered how I felt when we first met, the way he just came up out of the blue. And the way I was just trying to find a reason to go to talk to him and just see his face. And I was talking bullshit because I was so in love that my mouth was just stopping in the middle of the sentences or I was just forgetting what I was trying to say. And the night I climbed on his window at night right in his room. What a weirdo I am, annoying weirdo not in the hot way. They kicked him out of his home because of me. Does he even remember this?! And almost kicked him out of school when he got in a fight with my bully. I just ruin everything. Days ago Emily told me Josh, one of the guys who used to beat my ass together with his friends, likes me. He calls me words still and he is mean but I just ignore him. It's good to have an Emily, she knows everything that happens in this town. I don't even know how. And when he first hugged me that night in the hitel room. That's my favourite thing ever he does. And his morning face. That face is gold. And the way he smells and his things smell. I lived wearing his clothes because of this. He was making me warm. And you know, you can't really control the fire. And you can't always be warm , you should get burned for once. (Its never for once)