No Homo

Chapter 14

John's POV

Okay, I was confused. I don't even know what's going on anymore. The soft gentle butterflies have seemingly become angry, swarming around in my gut. I could feel my heart beating faster than usual, and my palms felt a bit sweaty. What the heck was going on ? Dave and I were sitting on the floor with our backs against the couch because for some reason we decided we didn't want to sit on the couch. We were playing videogames, and I could feel the slight movement of his muscles whenever he would press a button or move a joystick because he was sitting that close. At first I played off the weird feelings and the increased heart rate as just a reaction to the game we were playing because this was the first time I had ever played a first-person shooting game thing, but this is something different, and I know it. I just don't know what exactly it is.

After I died again, I looked at the time and realized that it was time for me to go home.

"I have to be home for dinner."

"Alright, I'll see you tomorrow, then. Are we going to work at your house ?"

"Yeah," I nodded my head.

"Cool." He followed me to the door and waved before he closed it. As I walked home, I thought about how funny I felt when I'm around him and why the heck it happens, but I couldn't figure it out. I decided I would talk to Rose about it when I got home. She would know what to do and why it was happening because she's really good at dealing with feelings and people problems and such. She's always said she wants to be a therapist when she grows up, so it makes sense.

When I got home, I called Rose. It wasn't long until she picked up.

"Hello John."

"Hey Rose. I was wondering if you could help me out."

"What do you need help with ?"

"Well, I don't really know what's been going with me lately, but it's really weird and I want to know what it is and why it's happening."

"Can you describe what's been going on and, if you know, what might be causing it ?"

"Well, whenever I'm around Dave-- and this only happens around him-- I get this funny feeling in my stomach, kind of like butterflies but not the nervous kind, and my heart speeds up a tiny bit, and my palms start sweating, and when I was just over at his house, we were sitting close together on the floor playing video games, and I mean, close enough that our arms were touching, and everything got worse, there was, like, a swarm of butterflies in my stomach, and my heart was beating even faster, and my hands were all sweaty, and I don't know why.Why does this keep happening and why around him ?" I explained really fast, the words rushing out as if they were in a race to the finish line.

"Ah, yes. I saw this coming."

"What ?"

"I had a feeling that this would happen, but I wanted to wait until I was sure."

"What do you mean ? !" I asked worriedly.

"Calm down, John. It's alright, it just sounds like you may have a crush on your 'best bro'. It's not a big deal--"

"What ? ! No ! There's no way I have a crush on him ! I'm not a homosexual ! Besides, I didn't feel like this around Vriska !"

"John, calm down. What did you feel around Vriska ?"

"I don't really know how to describe it; it was just kind of like a want to be around her, I guess."

"John, I wouldn't call that a crush. That's more of just a want to be friends."

"But.... I dated her."

"That doesn't mean you had a crush, John. Everything you just described about what happens around Dave, that's a crush."

"But I'm straight !"

"I'm not so sure you are, John. But it's not a bad thing. In fact, it's completely natural. It's okay."

"But.... I just.... it doesn't make any sense !"

"Of course it does, you just need to accept it. It's just part of who you are. It's only a big deal if you make it a big deal."

"Rose, please help me. What do I do ? I'm scared."

"John, it's okay. Please calm down. Everything is just the same as it was before, you just learned something new about yourself. There's nothing to be afraid of."

"But what if Dave finds out and then doesn't want to be friends with me ? What if he thinks--"

"John, I can assure you that he won't think anything bad about you. I promise he won't."

"How can you be so sure ?"

"Because I know."

"Roose."

"John, just trust me. You'll be fine. Jade will be fine with it because she's fine with me, and I can already tell you that Dave is going to be accepting as well. Just become more comfortable with it and you'll be okay. Telling your friends will help you accept it a bit more, as well. Just please don't try to deny it or make it go away. It's still going to be there, it's part of who you are, John. You can't change it and trying to won't make it any better. You have to just accept it and, I promise you, it will be okay."

"Wait, you said you knew this was going to happen. How did you know ?"

"John, surely you know by now that I'm good at figuring out secrets about people. Even if they're not in on the secret, themselves."

"But how ?"

"It's just something I'm good at."

"I'm still confused."

"About what ?"

"Everything !"

"John, it's going to be okay. You're still going to be the same person and you're still going to have friends. I promise you, it's alright."

"Okay. Thank you, Rose."

"Any time. If you ever need to talk, I'm here for you."

"Thank you so much."

"Bye, John."

"Bye."

I knew there was no way I was going to tell Dave. No way.

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> Author's Note

Hello my Brotatoes ! I actually had this chapter written for a while but it was in different places and I was too lazy to put it all together..... Anyway, I finally got it up and I hope you like it ! I don't really have much else to say but thank you for reading this story ^u^ I'll talk to you in the next chapter !

~Laurenbob .-.

(So I was proofreading this on my phone and it was all messed up so I went into edit to see what had happened, but everything I had typed for the actual chapter was there, but some of the spaces were gone. Anyway, I don't know if it was just my phone glitching or if an unfinished chapter was showing up for everyone but hopefully this fixes it. If it was showing up weird for you, I'm sorry .-.)