EARLIER CALLED "YOUNG, WILD AND FREE"
"I'm here for you, Always."
Always.
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There's a lot that can happen to a seventeen year old girl.
But this one's different. She's normal, just about as normal...
"My strategy is that some day I don't know how, nor with what pretext That finally you need me."
------------------------------------------------------------- I entered school, knowing that it was going to be a hard day. I did not even have my friends with me, so that was another minus.
As I passed Sarah and Tiana's lockers, the both turned and looked at me, sensing my presence. They knew. I gave them a small smile, and walked on.
That's the thing with people. I'm not talking about Sarah and Tiana specifically, but people in general. You tell then stuff, bad stuff, and then they all feel sorry for you, and then everytime you look, there are glances of pity and empathy shot at you from all sides.
This is why I don't tell anyone anything. The people in school don't even know half of what I am.
The first few classes went by in a blur, and soon it was lunch. I walked to the cafeteria alone, and entered quietly. Alex was not around , at least I had not seen him anywhere. Maybe he was sick.
I stood in the lunch line, and waited for my turn. The lunch lady smiled at me as she gave me my food. I looked around the cafeteria for a place to sit, because now it would be really awkward to sit at my usual table.
I spotted an empty table at the corner, and sat down there. It actually felt really funny to not be part of the gossip, not be a source of it. By now I was really lonely, so I wanted to finish food quickly and leave. Suddenly, I heard the clatter of a plate and looked up. It was Noah. I gave him a small smile as he sat down in front of me.
'What's with the monkey face? ', he asked me, pinching my nose. 'It's nothing... It's just one of my mood swings really. Nothing much, ' I said, not looking him in the eye.
'Uh Uh.. You're lying. It's in your eyes, I can see it', he said casually. I finally looked at him, and his eyes and face reflected only sincerity, I thought about telling him, but dropped it. 'Seriously, it's nothing. Look, can we not talk about it? ', I asked him, because I thought that another word spoken by any of us, I would start howling and that is not what I do. 'Suit yourself, ' he said and continued eating.
Suddenly I heard the clicking of heels, and whipped around. Valerie was making a beeline, straight towards us, and I suddenly did not feel good anymore.
She reached your table, and started talking to Noah, completely ignoring me. That was impossible, she just hadn't seen me yet. She finally turned around to see me , and I waited. Waited for the bullets to start and prayed with god to give me the energy to go through with this, because frankly, I was not in the mood. I was too sad to slap Valerie again, and I hoped that this would not come to that.
She looked at me menacingly. I now knew for sure that she was up-to something, something bad obviously. She whispered something in Noah's ear, causing him to look at me with shock and hurt. Maybe she told him abut the slap incident. She then said, and in a very loud voice, I must add, 'How are we today Gabriel? Did you cry before coming to school today? '
I looked at her shocked. How did she know about it? And then it hit me. Yes. She knew, because I freaking told her myself. Stupid me. Stupid, stupid me.
'I don't know what you are talking about. Go away Valerie.' I told her in the strongest voice I could muster. From the corner of my eye, I saw Sarah and Tiana slowly making thier way to us. 'Well then, let me remind you. ' she said giving me a sneering look. Would she do this, I mean it's low, even by her standards. So... Would she? Who am I kidding, of course she would do this. Being mean to me was in her blood.
By now, the whole cafeteria had turned silent, and was watching us, no one daring to breathe. 'Isn't today the day that your poor, poor brother died, Huh? Isn't it! Did you go see him this morning? That's why you're quiet right? And if I'm not mistaken, it was you who killed him. If it weren't for you, he would still be alive, and you know it! B***h! ' She then turned to face the student body.
'People, she's a murderer. She killed her own brother. Does someone like her deserve to live? Tell me! ' I looked around to see shocked faces all around me, some students sent accusing looks towards me. Then, Valerie walked up to me smugly and whispered in my ear, 'Game over,'
This was it. I knew I was going to cry, so I picked my handbag up and walked straight out of the cafeteria. This was the longest of my life. Having to walk amidst the accusing glares, and faces of shock, acting like a covering over me, it was agonising. I was getting weaker and weaker by the minute, and did not trust myself to hold up till I was alone.
As soon as the cafeteria doors shut behind me, I collapsed against the wall. Tears rolled down my cheek, and I couldn't stop crying. This was the worst moment of my life. I was completely and utterly humiliated, not to mention the whole student body hating on me now. I couldn't imagine what Noah thought of me now. Any traces of friendship that we shared, were now non-existant.
I knew what Valerie said was not true, at least a small part of me believed that. But, the majority of me seemed to agree with her every word. I knew that I needed someone beside me, I wanted a friend, and because of the stuck up , dumbhead I am, I had none of those.
I got up, and walked towards the washrooms. I needed to clean up, I couldn't let anyone see me like this. Nobody had ever seen me cry, and nobody ever would.
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I looked at myself in the mirror, and suddenly felt a surge of anger towards myself. I held on to the sink till my knuckles turned white. I washed my face and re-braided my hair, and walked out of the cafeteria. Everywhere I went, the students gave me looks of sympathy and pity.
Wherever I went, people would stop talking and stare at me. I had become a walking conversation stopper. I couldn't wait to get home. I did not know whether I could face another moment of stares and accuses today. I needed space, I needed time, and I needed friends.
AN This was the ninth chapter for you guys. The next chapters will be longer, I promise. Don't be silent readers. Please vote comment and share. Also, if you have any ideas, don't be shy! If you think that my story needs to be better you can tell me.
