onsra // a shawn mendes fanfiction

twenty four

m a d d i e

same nIGHT

"so what you're using me to make shawn jealous?" tony asked me.

"no, i just, wanted to set the record straight. show you both who i want to be with." i said unconvincingly.

"well that's quite ironic considering you don't sound like you know who you want to be with."

i sighed. what's wrong with me?

"you should probably go. it's getting late." tony said looking away from
my eyes.

i nodded, "okay."

i walked away from tony and over to blake, "let's go."

blake followed me into the car, "what was that all about?" he asked as we buckled our seat belts.

"i honestly don't know. shawn messes with my brain. i do weird things sometimes when he's near me."

"well than there's your answer." blake said starting the car and getting into the road.

"what do you mean?"

"you do weird things around shawn cause you're vibing him. you like shawn, maddie." blake said looking around at the other cars.

"and so what if i do? i screwed that up too. i'm better off alone man."

"ok." blake shrugged.

"i support all your decisions." blake said in an annoying girly voice which made me laugh.

"shut up." i smiled pushing his arm causing him to swerve off the road a bit.

"woah dude, chill before you kill us both." blake said.

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schooolll on monday.

i sat at lunch with my friends and watched as shawn tampered with the vending machine.

ariana noticed where i was looking and smiled.

"the tables have turned." she said and my others friends caught on to what she was talking about.

"isn't it crazy how he's the one who hates you now?" blake joked and i rolled my eyes.

"hey, shawn doesn't hate maddie." jay said and i smiled. i was about to thank him for defending me when he spoke again, "he just strongly dislikes her."

"ok," i said in defeat.

"you should go up there and start kicking the machine for him. maybe it will be the start of something new." brittany added.

"good idea brittany." blake said.

"why don't you go up and get me a water? that's how it happened last time." i said.

"i was nicer then." blake answered.

"but i'm thirsty." i said and blake nodded.

"thirsty for shawn mendes." blake said standing up, "but since i'm a good friend i'll help quench that."

i smiled, "thank you love you."

blake walked up to the vending machines where shawn was and looked at shawn hit the machine.

"you good?" i saw blake ask and watched shawn nod with a slight laugh.

"yeah, i just, can't get this thing to work." shawn said awkwardly.

"so, uh, you and maddie aren't a thing anymore?" blake asked slickly as he shook the machine shawn was at trying to make it work.

"you saw her with that guy. she kissed him." shawn said.

"yeah and you had sex with some random girl but that doesn't mean you didn't like maddie."

"that's different." shawn said before hitting the machine hard enough to make his bag of popcorn fall out.

"it's exactly the same." blake said as he watched shawn get his popcorn.

shawn shrugged, "she can do whatever she wants. we never dated. it just hurts a bit, you know? i liked her a lot."

blake stared at him.

"but, i'll see you later, eh?" shawn said patting blake's shoulder before walking away.

blake returned to his seat and stared at me.

"did you get all that?" blake asked me.

i nodded as i ate my food. i screwed up dude.

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m a d d i e

tuesday 💁🏼

i walked into school that day with low expectations. it was rainy and gross and i honestly was just not having it. i looked around and the first thing that caught my eye was shawn. we made eye contact and i offered him a slight smile. he turned his head away which left me feeling even worse. great start to the day, huh?

after getting all my stuff together i made my way to first period. it was a boring class, i was zoned out the first 30 minutes but was interrupted my a student opening the classroom door.

"maddie parker has to go to the office." shawn said standing in the doorway.

i looked up at him and the whole class turned to me, "oh! ok."

i stood up and walked over to him. we started down the hall together and i looked over at him.

"are you going to the office too?" i asked him.

"uh, yeah. i have to hand out papers for  mrs. phyits and they're in the office." shawn explained.

"oh, do you know why i'm going down?" i asked and he shook his head.

"no, they just said that you were needed in the office."

"oh." i said and our conversation went to complete silence.

it was sad. we used to have the most riveting conversations. i used to fight to stay awake at night just so i could text him. shawn and i used to talk for hours, and now we can't think of one good thing to say.

after what feels like years we finally made it to the office.

shawn let me walk in first and he followed me in. i went into the principal's office and he stayed in the secretary part.

i closed the door of the principals office and sat down in one of the chairs.

"hi, maddie." principal sanchez said.

"hi." i said awkwardly. i'm scared of her lol.

"so, you're not in trouble, don't worry. but i have something to inform you of." she said.

i nodded so she knew she could continue.

"this is hard for me to tell you, hard for me to tell anyone actually. you're mother called, and remember she loves you very much," the principal started. with every word she frightened me a bit more.

she continued to ramble on before i stopped her, "what happened?"

"your father, a good man. it's a great thing to fight for the country."

i slid to the edge of my seat, "what happened?" i repeated.

"he, uh, he was killed in battle."

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GASP aw this is sad

rl me i hate boys