onsra // a shawn mendes fanfiction

twenty five

s h a w n 😮

aye it's thursdayyy

i remember watching maddie walk out of the office with tears in her eyes on tuesday. i wanted to follow her, you know, to find out what was wrong, but she left too quickly. she got straight in her car and went home. i was going to text her but figured it would be best not to, considering we haven't talked lately. she didn't come to school yesterday either which made me worry even more. she's probably fine, she's maddie.

as i stood at my locker getting all my books, i felt the presence of an unobtrusive, short girl.

i didn't say anything. partly because i didn't know what to say, and partly because i honestly was still kind of upset with her. instead i just took a look at her. she gave me a quick smile but turned away quickly. she had been crying. i could tell, her eyes were red and puffy.

the bell rang and everyone rushed to their classes. i had something to give to a teacher so i needed to hurry up because i was officially late to class.

i turned my head to the other side and saw mrs. phyits. i ran up to her before she could get to her class, and called her name.

"hi shawn." she smiled.

"i have the, uh, papers." i said digging them out of my backpack.

"oh! thank you thank you!" she said happily. she was a cute little old lady.

i handed them to her and her smile widened.

"you're such a gentlemen, thank you very much." she thanked me again.

"no problem." i smiled.

she walked into her classroom and i figured it was time for me to go to class. my class was at the end of this hallway which is super close, so i started walking towards it. i walked halfway in the door but turned my head to the side before entering.

"just in time." my teacher said but i was zoned out. i watched maddie stand alone in the hallway. she held her necklace in her hand and her facial expression changed to complete sadness.

"shawn?" my teacher said in the background of all my thoughts again. i didn't pay much attention to anything he was saying.

maddie ran into the girls bathroom and i looked at my class, "can i be excused?" i said as i put down my bag and ran towards the bathroom.

when i entered the bathroom i saw that all the stalls were empty except for the big handicap one. i walked up to it and knocked.

"maddie. is that you?" i asked softly. i heard sniffling.

"it's shawn." i said but i still got no response.

i waited for a second but it stayed silent. "ok fine," i said getting on the floor, "i really hope this is maddie because if it's not i'm breaking into someone else's stall."

i slid under the stall door and sat up. i looked at maddie. she had a tear stained face and mascara running down her eyes. she sat, hugging her knees up on the cold floor, with her back against the wall. i moved so that i was sitting next to her.

"whats up?" i asked.

she sniffled again, without a response. i stayed silent this time, giving her the option to speak whenever she wanted to, and eventually she did.

"i'm sorry i kissed tony." she apologized.

"i'm sorry i never called you after prom." i apologized.

she nodded and gave me a slight smile.

"so, why're you crying on the floor of a bathroom?" i asked her.

she shrugged.

"come on, you can tell me." i said.

maddie took a deep breath, "do you remember how i told you about my dad?"

"yeah, he's in the military right?" i asked.

"he was in the military." maddie corrected me.

"is he coming home?" i asked excitedly.

maddie shut her eyes tightly trying to block the tears from coming, but honestly she did a quite terrible job of that. what i said made her cry. a lot.

"he died." she said as tears streamed down her face.

i stared at her.

what?

i honestly was in shock and didn't know what to do, but as soon as i came to my senses i put my arm around her and pulled her into my chest.

"maddie." i said sympathetically. i had no idea how she could've felt. losing her father? what do i say to that? i can't imagine what it's like to lose your dad.

"he died a hero. what better way to peace out of town than that?" i asked and she chuckled softly wiping her face. i smiled and held her close to me.

she continued to cry, and she's right to cry. she needs to cry right now, and she needs a shoulder to cry on just as much.

after her sobs died down, she picked her head up from my chest.

"thanks for being here." she said sniffling.

i smiled as a response and she sat up fully.

"we should probably get to class, huh?" maddie asked.

"we probably should," i shrugged, "but we don't have to."

she smiled wiping her eyes on her sleeve. we both heard the noise of somebody walking into the girls bathroom, and i knew this because we both looked at each other as soon as the sound began.

we stayed silent as the person entered one of those stalls but as soon as we heard her start peeing we burst out into laughter.

i heard the girl jump off the toilet seat in fright which only made us laugh harder. we tried to keep it quiet but honestly that just made it louder.

"shh." maddie said through her laughter.

her laughing made me laugh harder. seeing her happy made me happy regardless, but it made me especially happy to see her like this after what she's been through.

when our laughter died down, i looked at her with a smile on my face. i listened to that other girl open her stall and i stuck my head under the door to see who it was. i didn't recognize her but when we made eye contact her eyes widened and she jumped a bit. i started laughing again and brought my head back into the stall.

"she saw me." i said at full volume and maddie began to laugh again.

"quiet." maddie said ironically louder than i had said anything.

our laughter died down again and we both just sat their with smiles on our faces for a second.

"i missed you." i stated and her smile widened as she looked at me.

"i missed you too." she nodded and i smiled back at her.

we sat in the stall for lord knows how long, just being weird. i missed being around her a lot, i had forgotten how much fun she is. obviously she was still a bit down, but how could she not be?

when we eventually decided it was time to leave the stall, we went our separate ways.

i walked into the class i should've been in that entire time and all the students, and my teacher, looked at me.

"i'll let it slip this time shawn. you can hang out with miss. parker anytime you'd like as long as it's not during my class." my teacher said.

i nodded sitting down at an empty desk. i sat there wondering how she knew i was with maddie. i figured it was better not to ask, but it made me zone out the rest of the class.

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this is a cute chapter but it's also sad :((

i'm so fucking tired but i can't sleep