Morphine: Drugged is the New Paradise

Chapter 21 Eli

Eli's POV

I ran my fingers through my hair, frustratedly and I sat down on the porch bench. "Do really feel that way, or you putting on an acting?"

Her head turned to overlook my gaze, "I really feel that way." She whispered.

"But why?" I asked.

"You slept with me and then left. You rejected me, hurt me over and over again.I grew tired of waiting for you. As I started to hate you, I started to feel less pain each day." She explained, "and you were right it will never be the same between us."

I looked at my mate, she really did hate me, and she hates me more because it makes the pain go away. She really had moved on, but I couldn't let her walk out of my life. "I will do anything to have you."

"I am not yours to have."

"You were born for me, and I was born for you."

"It might have worked last time, but it won't work this time."

"I'm telling the truth. You are my mate." I said.

"I really don't care if you're my mate. You're a horrible creature and people like you shouldn't be born."

OUCH! "What have you heard?"

"I know everything. You slept with a majority of the girls at school. You came onto Dr. Cryus and you were a drug dealer. Everybody hates you, because of how you acted in school. Is Ryder the drug dealer you got the Morphine from?" She asked.

"Yes, I was a horrible person in high school. I tricked many females into sleeping with me but I'm not -" I began.

"You tricked me too."

"I am not that person any more." I defended.

"You haven't changed at all."

"I understand that you think that I'm that person, but I'm not. Ariel, you don't realise it was hard on me just as much it was on you. I never loved Gloria, I wanted to marry you since the moment I made love to you that night." I explained, "You think that I am just a women using loser, but durning this time I never slept with anyone. I slept with Gloria once and after that I wanted to puke. I took an hour shower and washed myself four times. I reeked of that bitch and I hated that smell. I just wanted to be with you, Ariel, and smell your wonderful scent. I just want to hold you and love you. I've always wanted that."

"You rejected me for Gloria."

"Yes, I know, my dear, but it was important for me to be Alpha. I could not be exiled from my pack."

"You think that makes me feel better?" I asked.

"It should, I didn't reject you because I didn't love you."

"You chose your pack over me."

"You didn't grow up in a pack, you wouldn't know that your pack is your family. Would you chose me over your mom, dad, and Julie?" I asked. She opened her mouth, but no words came out. "Yeah, that's what I thought."

"Eli, you could have told me what was going on. You could have told me the truth." She barked.

"How would that feel? It would have hurt more than me rejecting you. 'I'm sorry Ariel, I can't be with you because my father's an asshole and if I want to be with you I will be exiled from my family.'" I said.

"It would have hurt but I would have gotten over it." Ariel said.

"You should know that you're a horrible liar." I smiled.

She pouted in her wheelchair, "Okay, it would have hurt a lot."

"I couldn't let you be alone and know that you can't be with me because I was taking care of my pack. Gloria wasn't supposed to die. That's why I told you I didn't want you. I was trapped, but you didn't have to be." I explained.