Morphine: Drugged is the New Paradise

Chapter 31 Eli

Eli's POV

Everything was spinning, but I loved it. My body was comfortably numb and I couldn’t feel a damn thing. My brain was fuzzy and warm. It was a feeling like no other. I looked around the room and the colors blended together. I felt like was spiraling downward into nothing.

I blinked and I was coming down from my high. I looked at my feet, and I saw Ariel packing things into a suitcase. I tried to reach for her but my muscles weren’t responding.

“You’re awake, I see.” Ariel huffed.

“Ariel.” I whispered. That’s all I could manage to say. Slowly my body was coming back to me and I was able to sit up. “Where are you going?”

“Away.”

I frowned, and I bowed my head. I fucked up again. I fucked up big this time, “How long have I been out?”

“A week.” She grumbled, “Every time you thought that you were coming down from your high you popped more. You have been mentally gone and Xavier and I had to take care of everything.”

“Why are you leaving?”

“I can’t take care of you.” She remarked.

“That’s what mates do."

“No, I shouldn’t have to do everything for you and I have to sit here and wait for you to come back?”

“Ariel, can we talk about this?”

“No, you have been gone for this whole week, and guess what Garth has taken Ria.” She snorted.

“What?!”

“You should have known this was coming. He got the court date set up and when you didn’t show up, the people from the system came by. You lost everything Eli.” Ariel explained. “Julian is back as Alpha and Garth took his pack and Ria. I did everything within my power to fight and try to stop it but without your help I lost. I couldn’t do anything and I realized once you have lost everything that you will never be here mentally for us, I have to leave before I lose myself.”

I froze with fear. Garth took everything that I loved in this world from me, but I guess I should have expected that. He knew this would happen. He knew that I would pop as many pills as my body could handle and when I was gone he took everything. My body trembled, I lost everything. I couldn’t believe it. I didn’t want to believe it. I needed my mate more than ever because without her I would surly vanish into nothing. I am nothing without her, and she wanted to leave me. I guess I should have seen this coming too, but I just can’t let her go. I don’t want to.

“Please, my dear, can we talk about this?” I asked. I had to buy her time, maybe if I could distract her to let her guard down for a second…

“What’s there to talk about?” She asked, angrily, “When I needed you, you weren’t there. Every single time when I need you, you aren’t there. I need time to get my head straight. I need to go back to where things made sense. I have to do this for me. If I don’t do this, I will never forgive myself. I’ll live the rest of my life with regret. You have to understand, Eli. It’s not that I don’t love you. I love you with all my heart…”

Oh, please, Ariel don’t this. I turned my head away, I couldn’t bear to look her in the eyes.

“I have done all I can. Eli, don’t hate me for my decision. I can’t love you when you can’t even love yourself.” Ariel whispered, “I need to do this for me, and only time will tell if I will return.”

I didn’t want to cry. I had already lost everything dear to me, and I just couldn’t bear to lose her too. I bit my lip, to keep a hold of the last bit of my sanity together.