Morphine: Drugged is the New Paradise

Chapter 25 Eli

Eli's POV

If you love me then you'll let me go.

Her words rang in my head like a bad song. I couldn't let her go, I loved her way to much. I just got her back there was no way in the right mind that I was going to let her go. She was everything to me; the light to my darkness. She was going to be the one to save me from this addiction, and I tried to convince her. The light at the end of the tunnel was dim and seemed to be fading fast. I was losing her, and it felt like a crushing boulder on my chest. I started to gasp and trying to suck in air that was escaping my punctured lung.

Ariel stirred and I felt her warm soft hand cupped my check, "Eli, shh, it's okay. I am right here."

Her hand miraculously mended that gap in my lung and I could breathe once again. Our bond was going to kill me just like it killed Gloria, if i didn't have Ariel to sooth and comfort me.

"Thank you, my dear, I don't know what I would do without you...wait yes I do." I remarked.

"What overdose?"

"Remember, dear, werewolves can't overdose we are too strong for that." I assured.

"Well if you're so strong then how come you can't quit drugs?" She asked, loudly. Any louder and she might have awoken her parents. I don't want to be on the receiving end on that one. They'll try to find all the silver they could, before I even get a chance to see our wedding day...if there was going to be one.

"Then what would you do without me."

"If we don't get married, my dear, and you reject me. I will have no choice to end my life. There is no world without you, and I refuse to in that world. Perhaps when I die, I will be reborn into someone more suitable for you." I explained.

"If you kill yourself, Eli, I swear on my life that I will never forgive you and I won't even forgive your reborn newself either." She threatened.

Aww, she does care.

I wrapped my arms around her, tightly, "I love you, my dear."

"You're hopelessly impossible," She chuckled, "but I love you too."

"So this means we are going to stay together right?" I asked.

"I love you, Eli, but I can't put myself through all that again." I remarked, "I can't go through it again."

I rested my forehead on top of hers. The world was a cruel place, if Ariel and I was supposed to belong together then why couldn't we be together. It doesn't make any sense. Even if misfortunes happens, mates get to be with each other at the end. Gloria and Zane are together now, so why couldn't Ariel and I be together. I refuse to wait for her in the next life, I want her in this life. I had to have her in this life.

"I won't live without you." I whimpered.

"You have before."

"That was then, and this is now. I had it in my head that I was never going to have you back, but now I do." I explained, "You can't go through it again, well, I can't either. This time I won't survive, there is nothing keeping me from you."

"You're wrong." Ariel snapped.

"No, drugs is not keeping us apart, you and your parents are keeping us apart. Don't confuse the two." Eli corrected.

"No, drugs is why my parents won't let us get married." Ariel challenged.

She was harsh when need to be, and I loved that about her, but sometimes it scared me how I become so violent when someone challenges me. It brings out the predator in me and makes me want to thrash back, so I tried to relax and calm my vile thinking. It was hard to argue with my mate, and especially when she thought she was always right.