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Why Him

   I sat on my bed staring at my phone. I wanted to text Travis, but for what? He's the one that messed up, not me. Or maybe I overreacted. No, no I didn't overreact he's the one who decided to pound Diamond's face in. But I missed him, so much. I felt my heart cracking thinking about him, I sighed. I turned off the bedroom light and crawled into bed. But I couldn't sleep. I found myself scrolling through the pictures on my phone, well all the pictures Travis and I took. Am I being dumb?
    For loving him or letting him go? I knew I should of stayed home that night and not to Travis's. Or maybe even Diamond's place. Why did I even go to Travis's house. I laid back on my pillow and thought of all the things I could of avoided. I could of not caught feelings. What the hell am I saying, it was going to happen. We could of just stayed friends. What the hell am I talking about, that wouldn't have worked either. I pushed my hair out my face. My stomach felt twisted and my heart hurt. I tried not to cry.
    But, damn he was my everything. I felt like I knew him my whole life. No matter what happened, I thought nothing would come between us. But he overreacted and acted childish. Also he let a little disbelief get in the middle of it.  Did I do something? Why didn't I trust him?
    Because Diamond wouldn't snap at someone for a simple question. But I wasn't even there. I don't know what happened, but I know Diamond.  But still, I miss Travis. I want to fix it. Should I text him?
   No, if he missed me he would of text me. Maybe he will later, say he's sorry. I stayed up waiting for him to text me. I checked my phone every two minutes. Played with my hair, picked at my nails. I dabbled with the keyboard. Oh, come on Travis, text me call me baby anything. I felt like I was going insane. I heard the door crack open.
   " Adri" Diamond said " you are still up". Finally, I lost it. I began crying.
   " I was waiting for him to text or call me to see if he missed me too" I cried " but hasn't so". I threw my phone across the room and cried harder. I felt Diamond's embrace around me.
   " Go to sleep, Adri. He's not going to text you" he mumbled
   " But...but" I croaked. What the hell am I thinking, he never planned on it.
    " Can you stay here " I asked
  " Of course" Diamond answered. I wiped my face and laid under the covers. Diamond did the same. He stared at each other. He wiped the tears that I missed.
   " Diamond" I mumbled
    " Yeah" he said
    " I love him" I confessed
    " I know baby" he said " I know". Diamond fell fast asleep. I crawled out the bed and got my phone. I kept checking it until 4:00 am hit. That's when I really know. Damn, why him. Of all people I could fall in love with, I fall in love with him. I should've left him alone. Why did I let my guard down? Why did I let my guard down for him?  

Awe, Adrianna is heart broken 💔😢. Do you think she is handling it well? Do you think Travis will ever text her? Are they going to work it out? Vote, comment and share!