If I Can't Have You

Act 2 - Part 4

Demi

Hearing that Jordyn might be pregnant, while we were at the baseball game, put a damper on the rest of the day. For me, anyway. Jordyn, on the other hand, talked herself into being excited & she couldn't wait to get back to Nick & make up with him. I stayed up in the loge, sulking, trying not to burst into tears, fearing that I'd lost Nick, for good.

When I watched Nick & Jordyn, sitting down in the seats together & they took yet another selfie, I turned & walked to sit down in a chair. I knew she hadn't told Nick about the possibility of her being pregnant, because he was smiling, instead of looking shocked. I hated seeing them so happy & this was not how this day was supposed to go. Nick was supposed to get jealous of me & Mike, but I never saw a hint of that.

Mike came to find me, after a while & I told him the beer had gotten to me, so I wanted to stay out of the sun. He got me a coffee, then sat with me, until the game was over. The drive home, in the limo was excruciating, because Jordyn was all over Nick. I had to lean on Mike's shoulder & close my eyes so I didn't have to be subjected to that PDA, any longer.

I was relieved when we got to Nick's house & they got out, after thanking Mike & saying goodbye to us. I snuggled up to Mike, once the car started moving again & I smiled when I felt him kiss my forehead. I had that warm feeling, come over me again & I suddenly wanted to ravage Mike. I don't know what had come over me, since he wasn't the kind of guy I usually was attracted to.

When the limo pulled up to my building, I invited Mike in & told him that I would make sure he got home in the morning, if he sent the limo away. He smiled then kissed me & paid the driver before we headed into my apartment.

Once we got inside, I couldn't contain myself & attacked Mike, undressing him, as quickly as I could. He undressed me, while we kissed, then we ended up in my bedroom. We had sex several times that night, each time passionate & animalistic. I was letting out some aggression & I wasn't holding back.

I regretted having sex with Mike, the next day, but I put it out of my mind. I was stupid for thinking that fucking him would make me feel better about anything. It made me feel worse, honestly. I felt myself getting close to snapping, so I tried to keep as busy as I possibly could. I dove into my work & hung out with friends. I didn't hear from Nick, for days after the game, so one day I texted him to see if he had any news to tell me. We talked for over an hour & he never mentioned Jordyn being pregnant, so I had to figure out a way to find out from Jordyn.