Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Thrirteen: Unattractive

Not so hot anymore, once you've gotten a look inside my walls

I knew I'd send you screaming and screaming down the fucking halls

Not so attractive anymore when I took off my damn mask

Not so lovable anymore once I showed you my darkest side

Not so attractive anymore when I finally let you into my heart

Unattractive

And putrefying

Lost words

And insecure denials

I'm unattractive

And putrefying

Lost worlds

And insecure denials

But it doesn't make things much better

For you

Because your not so pretty either

~

Beautiful as a rose

With the sharpest thorn that'd pierce your skin in seconds

You deserve someone so much better

A person who isn't filled with hate

A person who actually knows how to understand your emotions

Nothing beautiful at all

And I'll set myself on fire

To be gorgeous for you

Not so attractive anymore when I took off my damn mask

Not so lovable anymore when I showed you my dark side

Not so attractive anymore when I finally let you into my heart

Unattractive

And putrefying

Lost words

And insecure denials

I'm unattractive

And putrefying

Lost worlds

And insecure denials

But it doesn't make things much better

For you

Because your not so pretty either

~

If only those three little words could stop a blade

But it would be three words that started the motion

Why can't three words stop a war

But it's always three words that start it

~

Sweet as the voice of a goddess

But with the bite of a viper

It used to be love in your eyes

But now I feel anxiety when I look into them

Because I showed you my unattractive side

~

I'm useless to you

Physical attraction isn't beauty

You'd never love me for who I am

In every single detail and aspect

Destroy me now and stab me to death under the fucking covers

I've no reason to live

Kissed away everything I never had

Suddenly found out I can't show myself

Abruptly stopped my breathing with the knot of a rope