Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Fifteen: The Longest Nights

The pictures beside me offer me no memory

And the noises your room makes

Doesn't bring me clarity

Do you shudder when you know I'm watching?

Popping your tires in the desert

Do you shiver when a million hands touch you in your sleep?

Putting out the fire in your igloo

I've built a memorial for you

With your name on it

And a hole leading six inches inside the ground

A casket waits for you at the bottom

All you need is my push

And aren't those the longest nights?

When you know I'm waiting right outside your door

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I've built a statue of you

Made it out of the blood and gore of your lovers

But it doesn't bring me satisfaction

The real thing is waiting to dig her own grave

Because those are the longest nights

When I know you're not alone

Those are my longest nights

When I've be left on my own

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The days I fall asleep

But the nights you can't blink a single eye lash until I'm gone

Because you know I'm everywhere

The unease pricking your hair

When you have nothing to wear

Your left alone and vulnerable

Those are your longest nights

When you know you are a slave to possession

Realizing you are weak

Vulnerable beneath me

Each night is longer because I make you wait in anticipation

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Trying to keep your head up

Focusing your eyes on the door

But your mind goes hazy and you don't hear the gunshots anymore

The only thing I don't know is if you felt it enter your head

Your face is half drowned in blood while I eat off the rest

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You were subject to my control

Suffered through my reality because everything else is surrealism

Didn't know possessive personalities killed

Did you finally learn a lesson?

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Your alive on the operation table

But look at who's your doctor

Burning away your facial expression

Forging memories in a picture drawn in your blood

Each drop was collected from your longest nights

Each drop was collected from my longest nights

You couldn't stay awake

I snapped when you fell asleep

Because each night only got longer