Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Eght: Lonesome Lyrics

The irony when they're all set to go and I'm sitting and dying here

They can sing songs of loneliness all they want

Even if they feel so alone

I'm the invisable one living in solitary

And here I am separated from my group

It wouldn't be the first that anything similar has happened

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You know I'm a monster

I know all I do is cause you distress

I never thought you'd stick around so late

This is the part where you abandon me

I don't get why your wasting your time with me

And I don't want you to waste another second

'Cause I'm just wasting your time

I'm throwing everything out the window

I don't want anything anymore that comes from you

Give away all your pity

Throw away your happiness

Kill any love left

Cause everything I felt died along with your reality

And by the time the sun sets

I'll miss someone else

But you won't know

Cause you're far gone

Floating away down a river on a raft I made from knives

Pushed you away and let the current take you

Didn't look back either

Just admired the way you pained yourself

Sickly thinking we'd meet again

And they don't know I'm missing them

They've probably forgotten me

Just like I forgot you

But I cry because I'm holding onto what I felt long ago

Tightening my grip on something that isn't gonna happen

Even if I'm the one who killed the connection

You'll still sing your songs of sadness and move on

Make someone else pity you and fall in love with them

If I can write something of love

Then it isn't hard to write something of hate

And together you'll sing the same song

The same exact one that I sung with you

But when I hear the melody it doesn't make me shiver

Not the way it used to when I met you

My own harmony is a violin the only has one string

Playing the same note with differenr thoughts

Searching for someone who doesn't wanna be found

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I wrote the same song you made

Just to mock your imperfections

You wrote me so many letters that I'm not gonna read

So I burn them all together

And when I stare into the fire I don't think of you

No, my mind wanders to something else

It makes my heart ache more with every thought

And I didn't think my stomach could get deeper

But it has

It'll be suitable enough to fill the emptiness

~

Throw your pity out the window

Give away all your happiness

I even sold your love for a dollar

That has 'lust' written all over it

I don't feel dirty though

But I still feel lonely

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I've finally found something out

Something that is a part of me

And I can't change or control it

Altering it would only be futile

The truth is I gave everything away

I've been there and done that

Been around the same block twenty times

But each time it looks so different

While I'm walking with other people

I also feel so much older and wiser

But I make the same mistake

Which is losing all of them

If you died today I wouldn't grieve for you

I'd only be dying of nostalgia

I've met you before

Can I please see your face some more?

But you told me to meet you by the shore

And did you really have to drown me?

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It's all okay

This is how life is supposed to go

But can I carry on?

Because I'm only singing the same song

With a different melody

The beat of my heart

But with no harmony