Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Eigthteen: What to do Now

What to do now it feels like we're at the edge of the Earth

It's like I don't know anything, anymore

What do we know? It's like everything we knew is falling apart

What are friends now if all they've ever done is abandoned you to be alone

Where is the trust now when all we've ever known is cynical betrayal

What is love in a world that has nothing but hate

And I refuse to take the path set for me

What to do now when there's nothing else to do and it's like all hope is gone

Blood rushed is the past

Destruction can begin

But I'll never loosen my grip on your heart

It's impossible to let go when you're glued to a fate

A road built by my own wood

A wind coming and a wind going chilling every innocent soul to their bones

The cold can never be bitter enough to make me stop loving you

Don't bite before that

When nothing can contrast

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What to do now the mirror is being shattered and now I can't see you anymore

Anything broken can be rebuilt, it's proven right in front of your soul

What to do now they've destroyed everything but somehow we're still all here

There isn't anything impossible for you

Every smile you make will take my breath away and by then I've lived my life

Nothing is more important to me then what you hold in your heart

What to do now it feels like we're at the edge of Hell and we're all on fire

Cherished love can't fall

Broken edges won't cut

I'll sew my eye lids up just so I won't fall asleep

Negative emotions will rest and true feelings can rise

Everything seems so surreal

But this'll always be my reality and the universes, acknowledged or not

Before I met you I didn't know how to breathe

Before I met you I didn't know how to smile

And I'll keep you safe in my arms forever

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What to do now I hate everything I wrote

The pictures of love only bring back memories of hate

The pain in my voice disappeared along with yours

What to do now I can't say I feel the same anymore

And you're waiting here alone by the fire waiting to be saved

But I'm in the crowd watching you burn

Could you forgive me if you knew?

I don't know what to do I thought I fell in paradise

But now you flipped it upside down

Or did it just die?

I'm tired, I tried

But anything goes when you've been left on your own

I know I didn't say goodbye but my absence is all there is to explain

It speaks for what I am

What I feel the most

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There's nothing to do now

I've fallen a million times

And I've stood up a million times

But we all know that we die

I left you alone

To hurt you for your own pain

Clenched my heart while hypnotizing me

But there's nothing to do

Nothing to say

Because I don't want to go back

I don't want to speak again

I'm left alone

On my own

So anything goes

Let's start over again