Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Nine: Vivacious Died

Another human is born

But another one dies

I'm brought to tragedy

Someone succeeds

But a harder worker fails

And you're brought to happiness

But I'm not jealous

I don't envy your smile anymore

You have what I wanted

But now I scoff, because I know it's just a rose

With the sharpest thorns that only cut my skin

When I gaze at its horrific beauty

And no one realizes that it's slowly wilting away

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Someone said hello to me

While I said goodbye to someone else

People tell me 'I love you.'

But others say 'I hate you.'

Life brought me sorrow

But it brought you joy

How can reality be so unfair?

But it isn't hard to see, because humanity is reality

Everything dead and alive comes from us

The desert pours and then it goes dry

Crops survive just to die in a famine

I fall in love just to discard my feelings

Your happy now

But you'll be sad in the end

'Cause I'll make sure you have nothing left

Hands can help but they also take away

I once raised you up to the sun

But then you forgot me like I'm no one

Keep in mind, you're still stepping on my back

So I get to choose when you fall

And I'll pick the time you hit rock bottom the hardest

Waiting for the day you'll fall down slowly instead of gravity pulling you down

I want you to think your dreaming

That this can't be real

But it is, because it's reality

And in reality, happiness dies

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You're like the twin I never had

The way the horror echoes through your words

You're like the friend I never wanted

The way your eyes say you don't care

Our wrists are identical

But the scars on our souls are different

Mine is damaged, like a smokers lungs

You have artificial breathing, you are only physical

Throw away an item just to get the next

To make you preoccupied

To postpone the pain

Your just getting a lung transplant

And I hope you know

I hope you realize

Your body will shut down

And your respiratory collapses

When that time comes, I won't be there to start your heart

No, you can't get back up by yourself

Everyone is passive when they're biten twice

No revival for you

No burial that you deserve

You'll only be set in a casket

And left there in the morgue

Bringing my sadistic friends

Necrophilia burns within them

I want to burn your casket

With your body in it

Only when I can hardly recognize your corpse

And I'm not the only happy you died

I'm not the only enjoying the smell of burning human

Vivacious died but brought back a happiness

But it's different, it's empty

Just like I always was