Perfection of Darkness: The Fourth Book of Poems

Verse Twenty Four: Close to the End

Things never seemed darker

A new year and a new fate

The prayer wasn't answered

Is this a test in life

Are you even real?

Or did you just betray me to die?

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The winters gotten colder

I've never felt so lonelier

The jealousy isn't painless

This suffering never had an end

It's only gotten worse

I'll use this event to my strength

I'll make sure we succeed

And go on to love forever

But I'm in love with a sin

I worship death and destruction

Because it's all I know

Show me a word of peace and all I'll speak is evil

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The memories are still fresh

They were the end of an era

I knew I couldn't hang on

You knew it wasn't enough

But I wanted more than this life

And now I have no life at all

My heart is close to stopping

Because I'm close to the end

I'm killing stress within me

And it's killing any love

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Bleed out my indifference

I'll make you swallow apathy

You hear it everyday

So let me help you digest it

The diet in your stomach, I mixed it with cyanide

I hope it's virulent enough to make you vomit your heart so someone else can break it

My pain is close to an end

Because my lungs have stopped heaving

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You know nothing but pain

Haven't even felt it, no shame

In the end, I'm the one to blame

You drink bleach, I light the match

Push you in a pool of gasoline

Let the match fall, the end of the game