Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 28

LUCY'S P.O.V

I woke up to the sound of faint laughing coming from down stairs.

It sounded like Nathan. But I decided to ignore it and to fall back asleep but the laughing got louder.

It made me giggle a little.

I got out of bed and re did my hair so I looked at least half decent.

I took a walk down stairs too see that no one was in the living room. I looked around and the laughing started again from the kitchen that made me jump a little.

I made my way to the kitchen, I walked in to see Lydia and Nathan.

Lydia looked towards me and smiled. Nathan turned around so he was facing me.

"Morning.." He smiled at me.

He got up and gave me a hug. "Want some pancakes?"

"No thanks"

I didn't feel very comfortable right here, like I'd interrupted something!

"Just came to get a drink" I smiled.

I went to walk out. "Lucy?" Lydia called.

"What?"

"You forgot a drink"

"Oh yeah" I quickly got myself a glass of orange juice and shuffled out of the room as quick as possible.

What's wrong with me? I'm in a great house, with great people and a great boyfriend. Why am I still feeling so depressed?

I walked to the top of the stairs and stopped. I was debating whether to go see jay. I was feeling really down for no reason and there is only one way that can make these feelings go away. But i can't. If I went back to my room I don't think I could control myself.

I took a deep breath and walked right instead of left which would have taken me to Nathan's room. I knocked quite quietly on jays door.

"Hmm?" I heard a deep voice hum.

"jay?"

"Lucy? Come in fuckface" he joked which made me smile.

I walked in and he was lying on the bed under his quilt.

"You ok?"

I started nodding but I could feel myself filling up and my nod became into more of a shake. I shook my head and looked down.

"Come here" he told me, holding the quilt open for me to slide under with him. I got in and I curled up into a ball my the side if him and placed my head on his chest.

I giggled a little because he gave the best cuddles. I got up off his chest and laid on the pillow next to him. I laid on my side and started playing with his hair, twirling it in my fingers.

I smiled at his beautiful brown locks. He looked up and smiled and shivered a little.

"I love people playing my hair" he admitted.

He turned around so he was also on his side and looked at me. I was still playing with his hair.

For a guy, he had really soft hair!

"Can I see?" He asked. I was a little confused but had an idea what he was talking about but I pretended like I didn't.

"What?"

"Can I see?"

"See what?"

"You know what.." he started. "Your arms"

I looked at him for a second. "Why?" I asked with a hint of wonder.

He took my arms and pulled my sleeves up slowly.

He looked down and examined my arms. He swiped his thumb across my left arm.

"It's hard for me to understand how someone could possibly do this to themselves. You know, I understand why. But how. It makes me really sad. Look at you. You're beautiful. Amazing personality, and so funny. Always manage to make me piss myself. Nathan's a lucky guy" he told me. He leant down as kissed my left arm.

His hand left my arms and raised to my cheek and started talking again.

"You're really brave aint you." He giggled. He dropped his hand. "Can't imagine what you went through for those two weeks."

I looked away and looked at my reflection in the mirror on the other side of the room.

I looked back towards him. "You know? You're like my bestfriend" I giggled.

He put his hand down on top of mine "And you're mine" he smiled.

I laid down for a second and closed my eyes and he still had my hand.

I felt the bed move as jay was getting up. He let go of my hand and came around to the other side of the bed. My eyes were still closed but I could feel him looking at me.

I opened one eye and looked at him for a second and close my eye again.

"What?"

He picked me up out of the bed and over his shoulder.

I screamed a little. "JAY" I screamed again.

He giggled evilly carrying me down the stairs. He jumped down the last two steps.

I giggled at him and was trying to wiggle my way out of his grip but it was no use. I screamed a little again. "Jay what are you doing?" I giggled.

He walked outside and the heat of the sun instantly hit my skin.

I realised what he was about to do.

"NO JAY NO." I giggled but pleaded.

Before I knew it he had thrown me into the pool.

I brought my head up from the water and gasped. Jay was standing there full on laughing. Nathan and Lydia was also standing by the door into the house also laughing.

Jay held his hand out to help me out. Kind of him. I grabbed his hand. I smiled at him. But Then smirked at him before I pulled his hand and he joined me in the pool, head first.

He was under a little longer than expected. I couldn't see him. Oh no. I looked at Nathan who was still laughing. "Where Is he?" I asked him because I knew jay was up to something. He kept quiet.

Jay came up behind me and once again picked me up and dived me into the water.

"JAY" I laughed.

I went to splash back when Nathan and Lydia also dived bombed into the pool.

We had a lot of fun.

"GUYS" max called from the side of the pool. He laughed a little at us. "You're all fucking mental" he giggled. "We've got to get ready for the cd signing." He told them, still giggling a little.

We all got out of the pool. Me and Lydia stayed by the of the pool while the guys went to get ready.

About 20 minutes later the boy came back and looking very nice and ready to go. "We'll be a few hours" Tom smiled at us.

Lydia nodded in response.

The boys waved and left. I looked at Lydia and we both burst out laughing.

"Last one in!!" she shouted.

We both got up and ran towards the pool.

I dived in while Lydia bombed in.

I felt happy as can be.