Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 10

NATHAN'S P.O.V

The car ride back was very quiet. Had I said something? I hope not. I don't know whether to brake the silence or not.

LUCY'S P.O.V

Talking to Nath earlier about my mam, has really put a downer on me. I could feel all the flashbacks coming back from when she'd come to my bamps and attack me.

Lucy, don't. You'll get upset. Distract yourself. How? Ok. We're almost at the flat.

As we pulled up outside the flat, I ran out of the car and shouted "I really need a pee." And I started running upstairs to the bathroom. I grabbed my little silver friend and slid down the door so Nath couldn't come in. I pulled my sleeve up, feeling myself get more and more upset.

I put the blade to my arm and dragged, normally I do it fast, so I could have painfully long but neat cuts but no, not this time. I needed a deep cut. I close my eyes, bit my lip, and dug harder. It wasn't hurting enough, how is that possible? I need the relief. I had to go deeper. So I dug deeper.

By this time, my hand was shaking where I was pushing down so hard on the blade. I stopped to the sound of Nath's voice, "you ok in there?" I heard him ask, slightly knocking on the door.

"Yeah, won't be a sec." My voice was a little shaky.

I opened my eyes and looked down at my arm.

Shit, there was blood everywhere. The blood was pouring from my arm. Shit, shit, shit. I got to get cleaned up. Shit.

I took some toilet roll and tried to wiped the floor up. But it was stained with the blood that's already dried up. Didn't know it could dry so fast.

"Shit." I said without realising.

"Lucy? You ok? I'm coming in."

NATHAN'S P.O.V

"Nath, no. You can't. Stay out there."

Regardless of what she said, I went in. Oh my god.

"Lucy?"

She was turned around, looking towards the window. I looked down at the floor, blood everywhere. A little blade by the blood. I slightly took Lucy's shoulder and spun her around. I looked at her arm. I didn't know if I was seeing right, if my eyes were lying to me.

How could she do this to herself? It's seriously heartbreaking. I hate seeing her like this. The cut looked about 9cm long, going up her arm. It was so deep.

"Luce, come on. I'm taking you to the hospital." I said, swallowing back my tears.

"No."

"Lucy, please. You need stitches" I told her, trying to look into her eyes.

"I can do it myself. Please don't take me to the hospital. They'll make me go to the mental hospital. I can't go there Nath, you're making me happy. I haven't been this happy in such a long time. If they take me away from you, I don't know if I'll be able to cope."

My eyes were burning at this point, I pulled into a tight hug. I really didn't care if I was getting blood over me. I took my hand and placed it on the back of her head, and my other around her back. She hooked her arms around me. I could have stayed like that forever.

"Please.." She begged into my top. She started to cry, hard into my t-shirt.

"Ok.. Sh-sh, it's ok." I put my hands on her cheeks, one either side and looked deep into her crystal eyes. "You're not going anywhere, no ones taking you away from me. I promise. Come on. Lets get you stitched up?"

She nodded and smiled. She led me to her room and got her first aid kit and I helped her treat her cut.

I sat down into the back of her bed and watched her finish putting the bandage on it. I could feel myself getting really upset. No, Nath, don't cry.

"Come here.." I asked her. Holding one hand out. She grabbed it and came and sat on the bed with me. Under her red and cream quilt. I looked at her and announced "you're so beautiful."

LUCY'S P.O.V

I smiled at him. He leant into and smashed his lips against mine, this was the hottest kiss we've ever had.

He started to deepen the kiss. Our lips moving in sync. He broke the kiss by taking his top off.

"You want to?" He asked. I thought for a few seconds before answering "yeah." With a huge smile on my lips. He slowly took my top off and kissed my lips, before moving his head down, kissing my neck, then my collar bone. Going down and down. He reached for the hem of my leggings and pulled them off my legs.

He looked up into my eyes and started to pull my underwear off. I smiled a little at him.

He came up, we were face to face. I kissed himself lowly and passionately Before I whispered in his ear, "you're my first."

He smiled at me and said "well, lets make it special."

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