Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 5

NATHAN'S P.O.V

I woke up and Lucy was no where to be seen. I walked into the kitchen and saw the girls eating breakfast.

"Want anything." Alice asked.

"Nah, I'll just have a cuppa" she looked at me and grinned, "oh, I should have known. Christ, Nath. You're going to turn into a bloody tea bag how much you drink it." I just looked at her and chuckled.

"Can I use your shower please?" I asked, feeling a bit like an idiot.

"Of course." Alice replied. Lucy hasn't even looked at me this morning. Almost like she was avoiding me. I gave her a quick look before walking out of the kitchen and into the bathroom.

I turned the shower on and quickly got undressed. I jumped in the shower before I felt the cold On my skin.

LUCY'S P.O.V

Honestly, i couldn't even look at Nath, i was too embarrassed. He'll probably mock me. No one would want to kiss someone as ugly as me, not even look at me. He probably realised that last night.

All these thoughts in my head started to get to me. I felt an usual irritation which I was used to by now. It just means I need to cut.

"I'm going to put my phone on charge." I told Alice as a lame excuse to go into my bedroom.

I ran off to my bedroom and quickly searched in my makeup box looking for my blade that I had taken out of a sharpener. "Finally.." I whispered to myself. I held the little piece off silver metal in my hand. Looking at it.. Trying my best not to take it ready to cut myself.

I've got this thing that every time I see a blade, I think of everything bad thing wrong with my life.

Next thing I knew I was slicing my wrist apart.

I'm so done.

NATHAN'S P.O.V

Oh fuck, I forgot my towel. I looked around the corner of door to see if anyone was there. 3, 2, 1.. GO. I ran to get a towel and I wrapped it around my waist.

I went into Alice's room to get changed. I put on a pair of grey joggers, and stayed shirtless. As I walked out, I heard a quite weeping coming from Lucy's room. I stood outside for a second, to see if I could hear anything. But again, the quiet crying.

I knocked quickly and walked in, lucy was sat against the wall with her head in her hands. Crying.

I sat down next to her. And just hugged her.

Just let her cry it out. After about 2 minutes, she calmed down and looked at me. Her eyes were so red and puffy. But was so pretty. I wiped her tear from her cheek with my thumb, and looked deep into her eyes. I could see that she was hurting.

A little smile grew on her face, it was so good to see her smile.

She leant up and kissed my cheek. Before she could pull away I kissed her. Quite passionately.

"Wanna go out for dinner, on me?" I whispered. Our foreheads against each other.

She nodded and smiled. I took her hair out of her face and behind of her ear. I really like this girl. Be nice to get to know her. I kissed her again.. She kissed me back. There's just something about this girl that was special. Different to other girls.

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Sorry for such a small chapter, but next one will be much longer, promise:) -C x