Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 31

NATHAN'S P.O.V

I was laying on the bed with Lucy laying on my chest. Both trying to catch our breath.

I had such great news and I was really excited and in such a good mood. I didn't want to tell her yet. Keep it a surprise.

I got up and threw my jeans back on. "I'm starving."

"Mmm, me too. Could do with food. Can we go out?" She asked with her cute little puppy dog eyes.

"Sure"

"Can we invite everyone? It would be nice for us all to go out"

"Great idea."

"Yay! I'll go tell everyone!" She replied very excitedly. I smiled at her cuteness and she ran out.

I walked into the bathroom and switched the shower on.

I took my jeans off again an jumped in. The heat of the shower was burning me where my skin was so hot anyway.

"FUCK" I shouted.

I grabbed my shower gel from the shelf and I noticed Lucy's shower box. I took a quick look in there to see if she had a brush in there. You know, looking this good isn't easy.

I rummaged around in the pink and white spotty box and came across a small comb. I reached down to pick it up. As I pulled it out of the box I felt something sharp across my thumb.

I took another look in the box and I saw something silver. I picked it out and there in my hand was a blade. I looked back in the box again. There were another, and another. There were about 6 altogether. Sadness filled me.

I threw them at the wall and stared at them. Collapsed at the bottom of the shower.

I turned the shower off and picked the blades up and hid them.

How can someone so amazing and beautiful would want to hurt her body? Your body is is the only thing that's physically keeping you alive. It wants you to be alive. Why would you want to hurt something that loves you so much? Ruin your beautiful skin? I know it helps. But it solves nothing. All the pain will just come back after those few seconds of relief. It also scars a lot. It's a permanent reminder of a temporary situation. Depression isn't going to stay forever. Maybe it'll stay for a while but it won't forever. I just wish she would realise this. That there are so many people who care for her by doing this. She not just hurting herself anymore, She's hurting the people around her.

I love her.

LUCY'S P.O.V

I ran down the stairs and ran up to Lydia.

"Hey! We're all going out for food. You coming?"

Her face lit up but I could tell she had worry in her eyes which confused me a little but i ignored it.

"Hell yeah!"

"Fab"

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*2 hours later*

We pulled up outside this restaurant.

"Well this is fancy" I blurted out.

"Well, you deserve the best" Nathan whispered in my ear which made me smile.

He grabbed my hand to help me out of the van and we walked into this amazingly looking restaurant.

We all took our seats. In order. It was Nathan, then me, Jay, Lydia, Tom, Max, Siva and a girl that Siva brought along. She seemed nice. Her name is Leigh.

Once all our food had came. I dug into my BBQ ribs. Everyone dug into there's too.

I looked over at Lydia and Jay who were chatting. I noticed that Lydia looks quite upset and paranoid.

She shook her head and got up and walked away towards the toilets. Nathan noticed too. I looked towards him and he nodded to understand that I was going to follow her.

I got up and followed Lydia. I walked in and she was standing at the sinks looking into the mirror.

"Lydia?"

She looked towards me and her eyes were red raw and looked quite saw. She wasn't crying but you could tell she had been.

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing.. It's nothing." She told me, looking back towards the mirror.

"Lydia. I'm not joking about. I know there's something wrong. I also know its between you and Jay. Just tell me. Please?"

"I can't"

"Why?"

"Because-" she started.

"Because what?"

"You'll think I'm disgusting."

"Don't be silly. Please, you know you can trust me."

"I know."

"Then what?" I asked her, worry filling My head. Thinking of the possibilities that she was going to tell me.

"I'm-" she paused. "I'm- p- pregnant"

My mouth fell open. I couldn't believe it.

"And jay?"

"Yeah.."

"Oh my god. Lydia?"

"We were both drunk.. We like each other Luce, we do. But I shouldn't have slept with him. I know. But like I said I was drunk." By this time, she got herself really upset.

"Oi, don't get upset." I went up to her and gave her a hug. "You're not alone through this. You have me. And Jay of course."

"I know. But everyone's going to think I'm a slut."

"Don't say that. No ones going to think that. There's a lot of teenage mums Lydia. You're not the only one. And it's not like you've been sleeping with everyone and anyone is it?"

She giggled at my response.

She looked up at me. "You're having a baby" I said excitedly.

She giggled happily. "I know." She wiped away her tears.

"Now, lets go out there and act like nothing's wrong is it?" She nodded and we made our way back to the dinner.

Like nothing was going on. I was so exited. My cousin and best friend is having a baby.