Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 47

JAYS P.O.V

I couldn't believe it. I fell to the floor. I couldn't hold my emotion in. Tom sighed before Running over to me and helped me up. "It's alright mate." He told me. I just couldn't control myself.

"Congratulations Mr.McGuiness" the nurse said before walking out.

My happiness was overwelming. I took Tyler from Lydia's arms and held him close to me. I kissed his forehead while letting out another tear. Waiting to see if my name was going to be called to tell me I was my baby boys father was horrible. I was terrified. I met Lydia's gaze and sat on the edge of the bed.

"Let's go home?" She asked me. "But, to our actual home. With everyone there. Lucy. Nathan. Max. Siva. And Tom." I nodded my head and helped her out of the hospital bed after putting Tyler down.

Before she could get anything together. I held her cheek an looked into her eyes.

"Marry me." I whispered.

"What?" She smiled, but looking shocked.

"Marry me. There's no reason to stop us. I love you Lydia and I want you to be my wife" I admitted to her, as I watched a tear fall down her cheek. She looked speechless. She smashed her lips against mine, with her one hand around my neck and the other on my chest. It was quite wet where we had both been crying. But it was so passionate. As I pulled away, I looked at her and smiled. "Shall I take that as a yes?" I smiled at her. She nodded and smiled,

"Yes, 1000% yes!" She cried. As she put her forehead against mine, I could see her smiling while biting her lip.

"Lydia McGuiness" I smiled, "I like it" I told her, while kissing he once more. But we got interrupted by Tyler crying. "Come on!" I told her. I lifted Tyler slowly from the cot and held him close, cradling him in my arms as Lydia got ready.

"Tom? I'm sorry for earlier."

"Mate! It's ok! I would have done the same. Let's just get the three of you home yeah?" I nodded and grabbed Lydia's hand to go get her checked out.

LUCYS P.O.V

My eyes fluttered open and the light from outside started to make it hard for me to see. I rolled over to notice Nathan wasn't there. I quickly looked at my phone to see that it was 11 o clock.

I felt upset today, everything was just playing in my mind of what's been happening.

My mum.

Ryan.

Ariana.

Why was my life so fucked up? And why was I so fucked up? It would be just easier if I just left. Everyone would be a lot happier without me. Even myself.

Should I?

No, Nathan would be heart broken?

No he wouldn't. He doesn't really love you.

But he does. He tells me all the time?

But he was probably lying.

I was having an argument with the demon in my head, and it was winning.

But how would I do it?

You'll find a way.

But what if someone finds me and stops me?

They won't.

I got up and ran to the bathroom. I felt sick from all these thoughts. I wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth before re doing my hair into a pony tail.

I walked down stairs and into the living room when I heard voices coming from the kitchen. I got closer to the door and noticed it was Nathan and Ariana. I was about to walk in when I heard something.

"Ariana Grande. You make me the happiness man alive. I'm so glad everyone knows we're together." I heard the sound of a kiss then Nathan carrying on. "I love you." He then said.

Those three words he told her hit me right in the gut. My whole world felt like it came crashing down. I felt so upset that I couldn't even bring myself to cry. I just walked to the door. To complete what i should have done a long time a go. To end it all.

I sent Jay a quick message.

"To: Jay

Jay. You've been such a great friend to me. The best. And I love you like the brother I never had. I'm so sorry for what I'm about to do. But I can't handle it anymore. Don't be sad. Tell Lydia I love her to? And tell Nathan, Sorry I wasn't good enough.

I love you xxxx

From: Lucy"

I hit send and run out the door.

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📝A/N) Sorry for such a short chapter, hate writing fillers.

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