Hate, Depression and Nathan Sykes.

Chapter 16

NATHAN'S P.O.V

The drive to the house took forever. Well, it's felt like forever.

When we finally arrived, I helped Lucy grab her suitcase from the van and pulled it inside for her. "And this is the house we'll be staying in." I told her.

LUCY'S P.O.V

the house was amazing, it had its own bar, ping pong table and a swimming pool. The view was amazing as the house was on top of a hill. It was incredibly amazing.

NATHAN'S P.O.V

She was looking around for a bit before she finally turned around to me. "Do you like it?" I asked her.

"No, I don't like it." What? How can she not like it. Oh shoot, I was so sure shed like it.

"I LOVE IT" she then said excitedly running up to me and holding me tight. Phew.

"Come on, I'll show you our room." I told her, giggling a bit of what just happened. So I grabbed her hand and led her up the stairs. "We'll bring out suitcases up now."

We went along the corridor and came to my room, which is now hers too. I opened the door and she walked in slowly, looking at me excitedly as she did.

"Oh my god." She said, while gazing around.

"What?"

"It's huge. You even have your own bathroom. You have your own bathroom? Oh my god. This is amazing."

I ran up Behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist. "It's all ours. Every night for 3 months." I told her.

I showed her over to the wardrobe, or as the Americans would say 'closet' and showed her, her half.

"NATH, YOU HAVE A WALK IN CLOSET." She then asked, not believing her eyes.

"Uh, yeah. Have a look" I replied. Pointing to the cupboard door. She slowly approached the door and opened it.

"I can't see anything."

I switched the light on and she gasped with disbelief. "Oh my god."

"Stop saying oh my god." I laughed at her.

"Nath, you have your own bathroom, you have a swimming pool, a bar down stairs, a ping pong table... In the house. this place Is massive. I will carry on saying 'oh my god' ok?" She laughed back.

I couldn't help but laugh.

"Come on, lets get our stuff from down stairs."

We quickly put our suitcases upstairs, then went back down to relax a little. Lucy's dive bombed the sofa and let out pleasurable sigh. She went to say something but before she could i butted in. "Let me guess. Oh my god?" I giggled.

She giggled at me and winked and pointed. "You got it."

I sat down next to her and we chatted for a little of what we wanted to do after out first interview tomorrow.

"Can we go.. No lets goo..no we should go.." She asked, changing her mind before she could even say where she wanted to go.

"Nath, can you come help please?" Jay shouted from the van outside.

"Yeah, be out now mate." I shouted back. I turned to Lucy and said "won't be long"

LUCYS P.O.V

I saw Siva in the kitchen so I went to go talk to him.

"Hey"

He looked at me and smiled. "Hey babe, you ok?"

"Yeah, this place is mad. It's so big." I replied back, looking around the kitchen.

He laughed a little. "Look, we all love you being here, you're a lovely girl but please be careful." He placed his hand on my arm and carried on. "What ever Nath has told you about the fans. They will send you a lot of hate if they find out about you. It's horrible to hear, I know. But I'm worried for you."

I could feel my eyes filling up.

A tear slowly slid down my face, I just want to be with Nath. No complications. So, I can either be with Nathan secretly and sneak around or have the world know and have a load of hate.

"Hey, it's going to be ok. You wait and see." He said, grabbing my cheek and wiping away my tear with his thumb. His other hand still on my arm.

He stared into my eyes for a little while. Everything went quite and peaceful.

I was in the same trance I get when looking into Nath's eyes.

Wait no, Lucy, stop it. I got snapped out of it.

He started to lean in. But before i could stop him. his lips had hit mine, wow what? Oh shit, no.

"Wow, seev. What are you doing?"

"Oh my god, I'm so sorry."

"Forget about it ok." I started to walk out,

"Luce-"

"Forget about it."

I ran upstairs and ran into Nath's room and dug around in my suitcase for my bag of toiletries and looked myself in the bathroom. I sad on the toilet seat and looked for my little sliver friend.

What have I done, what did i do? Why did he do it. I'm a failure. I've messed up. Why am I such a fuck up. I'm going to loose the best thing that's ever happened to me.

Before I knew it I was gliding the little sliver piece of metal along my skin. The physical pain slowly easing the pain on the inside.

I got off the toilet seat and dropped the blade where my arm was so numb, I walked up into the mirror and looked at myself.

"Look at yourself, you're a failure." I said to myself.

I thought about that kiss for a second, my stomach started to turn. Don't get me wrong, he's a lovely guy. But, I like Nath. He's the best thing that happened to me.

"What have I done."

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A/N - I've noticed a lot more people are starting to read this, so thankyou so much. Hope you're enjoying it) lots of love:) -Cx