Never In A Million Years

Chapter Twenty-Two

~Karabo's POV~

It had been twenty-four hours since she and I walked out of each other's lives. Twenty-four hours of hell and destruction. Pain and agony. A longing for a way things should have been.

Today was the 200m semi finals, and both Boithuto and she who shall not be named made it. Naturally, she was nervous, but Boi, being super proud of her last triumph, was calmed and relaxed. 

"Too confident, are we?" Isaac walked up to her. 

"You know it." she winked. 

I've never really noticed it, but she's actually really pretty. She has a petite body, and is quite tall for her age. She's not the youngest woman here, Ally was. But she was definitely the most developed. Her and Isaac would actually make a really cute couple. I knew he cared about her. He cared for everyone, but with her, it was different. Cute.

Anyway, Bonang had walked up to Ally to cheer her up about my departure. I could see Ally was still sobbing. Great, I messed up her focus, and her race. Way to go, Karay. That's what she called you, Karay. I miss that. 

But she was the one who jacked up. Who messed up. It was all her. Her, her, her. The girl I loved. I let her slip away. Wait, no. She let me slip away. Her, not me. Her fault. But I couldn't let it eat her up like this.

I walked over, 

"Ally, seriously. Calm down. You'll be fine, really. Unleash that hidden speed." I breathed.

She just stared at me, probably unsure of what to say. Kgosi came over and her shocked state changed immediately. Wow.

W.O.W. 

I have no words right now. 

He smiled at her, and she returned it. 

Happy. Was she honestly happy?

I walked off. Not wanting to watch her race anymore, which was to begin in a few minutes. 

"ALL 200 SEMI-FiNAL RUNNERS, MAKE YOUR WAY TO THE ENTRANCE OF THE MAIN TRACK. ROUND 1 IS ABOUT TO BEGIN!" One of the officials proclaimed.

Unfortunately, Ally and Boithuto were both in round 2. I couldn't wrap my head around this one thing though. Kgosi and Ally. She hated him, why was she so friendly with him now? 

Crap, 

I had allowed myself to think about it again, when I had vowed to myself I wouldn't. 

I couldn't help it. I loved her.

Loved,. Past tense. 

Except, it is. Yes, I loved her. Past tense.

But I still love her even now. I'm in love with her, there's nothing I can do about that. Though we aren't on speaking terms, I can't lie to myself. 

Crap, 

I'm doing it again. Thinking about her, and this whole mess. This entire thing caused my our pasts. How could I walk away. She was depressed before I walked into her life. And now, I had walked out like it meant nothing. 

But she was my everything.