Reborn

Chapter 13

Adam's POV

Why was I looking at her? She sat on the other end of the long dining table to me. Kaylyn and some of her friends sat on either side of Bonnie. It seemed like she was having a good time, that she fitting in and everybody liked her. But I was unsure. I wanted to like her but I knew that a part of Fern was in her and I couldn't take it.
She glanced at me once or twice whilst we were all eating and if i caught her looking she would look away quickly and blush.

"I know it's hard Adam, it'll get better." Lucas whispered into my ear.
 
My hands went into fists, "It's kinda hard considering all my wolf wants to do is be with her." I whispered angrily back at him.

Lucas just patted me on the back, he didn't know how to handle this either.

I needed to take my mind off of everything. A jug full of Lero sat close to me on the table, reaching over I grabbed the jug and poured the liquid into my cup. I downed it with ease. One drink. Two drinks. Fern's dead. Three drinks. Bonnie. Four drinks. Fern's wolf. Five drinks.

I had lost count of how much I had had to drink but I figured it was a lot. Everyone had left the table and music was now playing. I sat alone swimming in my own head. I was drunk but I was still thinking about Bonnie and Fern.
Why did this have to happen to me? I had been good, I hadn't ever made the moon goddess angry. But for some reason I was the one who had to be punished.
Something across the table buzzed disrupting me from my thoughts. I looked up to find that there was a phone on the table. I reached for it and on the screen showed two girls smiling towards me, Kaylyn and Bonnie. They looked so happy. I figured that this phone either belonged either one of them.
A text message popped up onto the screen, 

Hi Bon, Dad and I was wondering when you'll be getting back, it's getting late x Mum

Yep, this is Bonnie's phone.
I got up from the table but I was dizzy on my feet. Getting my act together I started to look for Bonnie.
I heard people laughing in the other room. I couldn't understand how they could be so happy after we found out that one of their friends had died. My mate... died. My heart ached every time I thought of Fern. I didn't want to imagine her in pain, it made me feel sick. 
Now there was a part of Fern in Bonnie and it confused me. Technically she was my mate and even though I didn't want to feel anything towards her it was hard.

I knew that Kaylyn's group of friends usually hung out on the roof so Bonnie was probably up there with them.

Upstairs the corridors were dark which didn't help whilst being drunk. I had found my feet so I was walking steadily again but my vision was swimming.

I smelt her before I saw her, violets and honey, the same as Fern. She stumbled into the corridor ahead of me. She obviously hadn't seen me because she started dancing.

She looks cute. My wolf Seph said to me.

For Goddess sake, it isn't Fern! She isn't our mate! I shouted back at him. Seph was silent but I knew he wasn't listening to me. 

Bonnie suddenly stopped when she saw me.

"Who's there?" She called, Seph purred in response. Her voice was soft and sweet but she slightly slurred her words. She was drunk as well. If I had been sober I would have known this was a bad thing considering that she was a new werewolf but it didn't register in my head.

I didn't answer but instead slowly started moving forward. I stopped when I was only a couple of meters in front of her. I held out her phone.

  "Um... You left this on the table, I just wanted to return this to you." I was slurring my words slightly as well.

Relief filled Bonnie's eyes, "Oh my god thank you, I was worried that I had lost it. But how did you know it was mine?" She smirked at me.

"Your lock screen photo is of you and Kaylyn together so I guessed it would either be yours or Kaylyn's.".  She smiled at me. My wolf was starting to take over. My thoughts was his. I knew this was going to end badly, I was going to do something stupid.

She picked up the phone from my hand as she did her touch sent fireworks through my body. I had to hold myself back from pinning her to the wall and kissing her. Obviously she felt sparks as well because she jumped back a little as well.

"Uh, thanks" She smiled again.

"Why are you here all by yourself?" I had to distract myself from my thoughts about her. It was too much. My wolf and I were having a battle for dominance in my head.

  "Oh I've been on the roof with Kaylyn and some of her friends, I just came down to find my phone so that I could ring my Mum to say that I was okay."  She said casually, oblivious to the fact that I was doing everything to keep me off of her.

Silence. For goddess sake Adam say something else.
"I'm sorry I've been so cold towards you." She said it was okay but I knew it was not,
"I mean it, I shouldn't have attacked you, I don't know what came over me. So much has happened recently and I guess I just... snapped." I really meant it but it also me trying to distract myself. I needed to get out here.

"Seriously it's okay, you lost someone close to you and now their wolf is in me. I would be upset and confused too if something that peculiar happened to m....." I was kissing her before she could even finish her sentence. My wolf had won dominance and there was nothing I could do. My hands were cupping her face and her hands were on my chest. The phone that was still in her hand was cold against my chest. 

My wolf pushed harder but Bonnie didn't shy away. I pushed her against the wall.
I had to stop, this wasn't supposed to happen. It wasn't Fern, it wasn't Fern, it wasn't Fern I kept repeating in my head but nothing worked.

Suddenly something pushed to the side. Seph growled in response. Bonnie looked at what had pushed me in surprise and my eyes followed her gaze. It was Matthew. I wanted to thank him but Seph still had control. Seph continued to growl at him as he walked off with Bonnie towards the roof.

Before Seph could follow them I took over and ran down the stairs and through the doors. No one saw me leave and I'm glad because I didn't want anyone chasing me again.

What the hell do you think your doing Seph? She's never going to talk to us again! I screamed at my wolf.

Maybe you should give into your feelings towards her. Mara's bonded to her soul. She's our mate. Seph said to me. I got even angrier.

Have you forgotten about Fern? She is our mate. Are you just throwing away all that we had with her?  I said to him

I mourn her death... of course I do. But Mara bonded to Bonnie for a reason. Mara wants us and we not there for her. 

I ignored him and kept running.

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