Eros - Passionate Love (COMPLETED)

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Emotional problems that I have for my family didn't became a hindrance in my study. Instead, I used it as a motivation for me to strive hard.

After passing the nursing board exam and ranking at fifth place.

A private hospital offered me a job as an exclusive nurse of a famous surgeon. I took the opportunity.

My career was so overwhelming. That I never pictured out this to be. My professors and mentors are so proud of me. I feel so loved and happy.

Pero tuwing umuuwi ako sa bahay. Kasalungat ang nararamdaman ko.

" Ate..."

Mas lalong sumikip ang dibdib ko nang marinig ko ang boses ni Miracle.

Hindi na ako nag atubili pang lumingon sa kanya, pigilan ko man siya o awayin, lalapit at lalapit pa rin siya sa akin.

Habang lumalaki si Miracle, I became distant to her, not only her, but also to our parents.

Kay lola at lolo lamang ako malapit.Pero wala na sila rito nang nag high school ako, sumama na kasi sila kay Uncle Rast sa Canada para doon manirahan. Mas naramdaman ko tuloy wala akong kakampe dahil wala na sila dito.

I felt like I was alone in this unfair world.

Nagpatuloy ako sa pag eempake ng mga gamit ko at hindi siya pinansin.Naririnig ko ang yabag nang paa niya.

No matter how much I deny it I still love my sister.But I have a million reasons to stay away from here.

The jealous will still eat my system.If I will stay here. I might end up dying hating my family, so I decide to go far away.So that it won't take further. I guess.

Because no matter how much I keep telling myself that this is nothing, that my parents isn't having a favoritism on us. It will still stand because of their actions.

They might not say it. But they're action slapping it to me.

" Ate Aicel.. "

Nakatayo na siya sa harap ko pero ganoon pa rin, pinagpatuloy ko ang pag eempake.

" Ate, what can I do, for you to stay? Ate, don't leave me alone here... please. "

Nagbuntong hininga ako at nag angat ng tingin. Pinilit kong hindi maawa sa naiiyak at malungkot niyang maamong muhka.

Seeing her near me, will always reminds me that I'm nobody in this family.

That I'm only the flower vase inside thier family portrait. A part of the picture, but not important.

Lumuhod si Miracle sa harap ko na siyang ikinagulat ko.

" Ate, please don't leave me.. "

Pool of tears flowing on her angelic face. I keep on ignoring the familiar feeling when every time I saw my sister crying. I'm saving my ego.

But then again, i failed. No matter how much the jealousy eaten me up, the love for my sister will still ignite, above all. Miracle is indeed my weakness.

She is no longer the baby girl I used to play with. She's now a fine young lady.

I handed her my hand, I'm expecting her to put her hand on mine. But she jump on me and hug me tightly, just like before.

" Ate, wag mo akong iwan, please. You promised me, forever mo akong babantayan. You'll always play with me. Y-you.. promised..."

My defenses crashed,letting my eyes to flow tears.

" I'm sorry Mira. I can't stay. Ate is no longer a girl. I have to go on my own. You see I'm not getting any younger. I have my life besides being your big sister.. " I lied.

I know this will come.

The day I will leave this house.The day that I will stop myself from getting hurt.

Being inside this mansion with my family, will only let me feel so little and invisible.

They said family is home.Home shouldn't let you feel out of place. But why I feel so unwanted?

" Thanks manang.. " Sabi ko sa kasambahay naming si Telia ng tinulungan niya akong ideposito ang mga gamit ko sa aking sasakyan.

" Hindi niyo na po hihintayin sina ser atey? " Tanong nito sa akin.

Umiling lamang ako nginitian si Telia.

Ano pa ang hihintayin ko? Na kong sila nga mismo ay walang pakialam sa akin.

When I speak out to my parents that I'm separating from them from now on. They just agree with me. After all I'm already old enough to live independently.

Hindi na ako nagtaka, knowing them, mas gusto nilang wala ako sa paligid.

" Hindi na Telia. Paki lock na lang ng gate. "

Tumango si Telia sa akin bago magalang na nagpaalam.

Muli akong sumulyap sa malaking bahay namin.

This house has a lot of memories, good and bad. But now, I will forget all of it. To start a new one. And I'll make sure it is better and worth it.