A Hold On My Heart (A Barney and Robin- How I Met Your Mother Fanfic)

The Universe Can Be Cruel

The Universe Can Be Cruel

Chapter 23

Robin's POV

 4 months later...

 I'm five months into my pregnancy now and I've only gained five pounds which is great in the long run because I won't have that much weight to burn off afterwards. I already went to the parenting class and my required appointments for the week so I can get to breathe for the next three days. I still have to work of course. Sadly, morning sickness isn't enough to get me out of not going to work. 

   Anyways, I'm only an hour into my shift and I still have five more to go. The truth is I'm feeling so lousy that I don't know if I can last that long. The baby, which has been confirmed to be a girl, by the way, won't stop kicking me in my stomach, which just adds more fuel to the fire. Also, Patrice has been looking at me strangely for the last ten minutes strangely. I finally have had enough of it and ask her what she's staring at. She points down to the sides of my legs near my crotch. I look down and instantly panic. I think I know what this is. I'm pretty sure that I'm having a miscarriage. 

     I bark at Patrice to take me to the hospital and she does. On the way, I call Barney in a panic and he tells me he'll be there in a few minutes. I try to hold back tears on the way there, but I fail in doing so. I knew that there was a high possibility of this happening. I've prepared myself for it, but that doesn't necessarily make it any easier. 

   10 minutes later...

      Barney meets me at the hospital and I get rushed to the OR  with a middle aged female doctor named Dr. Cradle. She looks at me in pity as she wells me to this tragic fate. Barney follows us as long as he can before he's told to sit in the waiting room. 

   Barney's POV

    An hour later...

        Robin comes back from surgery broken down and bent out of shape, which confirms our biggest fear has come true. Robin and I lost our daughter and are not going to be parents, at least not for a long time. I'm not one to normally break down but this is too much for me to handle. This was supposed to be our opportunity to finally raise the child we've always wanted. I don't understand why the universe would spite us like this, but because of us I've finally lost faith in it. Also, this miscarriage is certainly going to make Robin give up on ever having kids. It took me so long to convince her that it would be wonderful to have one. All of that effort has turned to dust. 

       Robin and I go home later that evening barely saying anything to one another. We silently agree that we're going to wait until tomorrow to tell the gang. We need some time to process it and become a bit more rational.  Though I can already feel the strain coming into our marriage. I've heard tons of stories about miscarriages or the death of a parent's child breaking up a marriage. I'm scared that those stories are going to become a reality for us. The point is when you're a parent and you lose a child, it alters your life forever. 

Hoped that you guys liked this chapter! :) -Mary