"Go get the girl Liam, we're both using each other to get over our exes and it's bad to go back into a toxic relationship, but I guess that's our yellow paint. Yellow is a colour of happiness, but yellow paint is poisonous and I guess our ex's are...
"But I loved you Kira. I loved you with my whole heart."
Even though I caused him so much pain he refused to not look at me even though his lips trembled and his shoulders heaped; he refused to turn away from me.
A lone tear departed from his heavenly blue eyes, they looked so weary. So tired. So done with crying. And before I needed to ask I knew it was about me and Isaac. I was unsure of how he knew but it wasn't in my place to question.
For a moment it was silent. Just both of us staring deep within each other's eyes. Unable of any sort of movement. Our hearts used to pound in unison, but his was now falling behind.
"I loved-"
Before he managed to finish he bit his tongue. He tried to hold back the tears that threatened to fall from his deep blue eyes. He looked away and wiped his tears.
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I knew he tried to speak but his lips quivered and that's when I knew I had to say something. I had to at least try and make things right. But I cannot make anything right.
Pain demands to be felt.
Before I could utter a word Liam's mood changed. He was furious.
"Why did you do it?!" He screamed in resentment.
His nostrils flared whilst his eyes flashed and closed into slits. He hovered over me.
I gasped and I felt as if I was suffocating staring into his cold, rigid eyes. I remained silent as I watched the white in his eyes turn black and his iris glowered teal. His leather stare grew painful and piercing.
"Your nothing but a cheap slut! Is it that hard to keep your fucking legs closed? You deeply amuse me.
First you say you love someone and with the same mouth you kiss my best friend?! What can he do that I can't?Fucking answer me Kira!"
I panicked. My palms grew sweaty and I couldn't speak.
His unmoving gaze was accompanied by deliberate slow breathing as if he was fighting but losing.
He sighed and began to walk away without an explanation.
Although I hesitated I managed to speak with his back turned to me.
"It breaks my heart to see you in pain. And to know that all of it has been caused by me is the worst kind of feeling in this world. Please forgive me for what I did. I took you for granted all the time that you were with me.
Now that I'm losing you I realize how big and important part of my life you were and you really are. I truly can't live without you, you've been through everything with me and I've ruined it by doing this. And it hurts.
Truth be told I didn't want to but that's no excuse. Liam you deserve better. I crave love but I find a way to curse it away from me. And you need better than that. You need better than me. I am so sorry for what I've done.
I hope you forgive me and I hope God forgives me for what I've done."
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He didn't say anything. Not a word.
He walked away.
He left me in the cold and overwhelmed with my demons.
