Dark poems

Why? +amy's story

For all the people who read this.

I'm sorry. 

I don't know why but I want to ask this.
For the religious people.
Who believe in god. 
Please don't be mad for me asking or saying this.
But I just want to know.
I'm asking you

Why?

If god is the one that stands for love, hope and happiness.
Why am I so sad?
Why am I in the dark?
Why do people hate me?
Why wont god hear my prayers?
Why didn't he help me?
Am I not worthy enough?

Please i'm asking you this cause I want answers why I have to go through this pain.

And yes I know others must have it worse than me.
So I want answers for them to.

For the little girl Amy who's mother was an alcoholic.
Who's father left her mother by birth.
And her brother was a drug dealer who held the money for himself.
Who had to care for her ill mother even if she knew that her own mother hated her.
Who never got anything.
Who was always left aside.
Never accepted. 
But once when it was christmas her class had to buy gifts for each other.
A girl from her class had her and complained that she wanted somebody else.
But her teacher said she had to do it. So she made a little key cord from some colourful rope. It was worth barely a dollar.
On Christmas day when everybody unpacked there gifts Amy was very happy with the little rope.

The school also had a big tree and every student had to put something valuable and meaningful for them in a plastic see trough box. With on the backside a paper with written on it, why the object was so valuable to that person.

Amy put her rope in the box and wrote on it why it was so special.
"Because this was the first thing somebody ever gave to me"
Her words made even the toughest teachers cry.
But,
Amy is dead now
Because in her whole life nobody ever cared for her.
Talked to her.
Befriend her.
And she
She cared for everybody
Even for her alcoholic mom who didn't even bother to look at her and probably didn't even noticed she is dead.

So what i'm asking is why would god let this happen.
She was young and talented.
She cared for everybody
But nobody for her.
Please if you have an answer tell me.
Because I want to know
Why?

And please don't be angry for me asking.
I don't want to assault anybody. I'm christian myself. But I'm getting my doubts.
Sorry.
I respect everybody's religion.

Thank you,
Demitje1000

Ps. this story about amy is true. Although I don't really remember her real name.
Its a story I heard at school from my teacher. She had amy in her class a few years ago.