Why, Just why?

Chapter 21

Ashley's P.O.V

I got home and I was running low on gas but my mom would give me some money to get gas before school. I unlocked the front door, I didn't even check to see if my mom was home, instead I go straight to my bedroom. I throw my my backpack on the ground, shut my door, then laid on my bed and started to cry. I thought Liam loved me with all his heart, why did he do that to me? I thought he was better than this and I thought I could trust him, but I don't know if I can

I finally slowly get up from my bed and go check to see if my mom is home. I open the door and I said her names 2 times but I got no response. I check her bedroom to see if she was in there but she wasn't.

I was still mad, so I walked into the kitchen and spot a pair of scissors I knew that I was gonna regret this... I pick them up and walk back to my room, shut my door then I go into my walk in closet, then shut it. I stared to cut my right wrist, i started to cry. It hurt so bad. Then I started to cut my other wrist. I had to stop, I put down the scissors and watch my cuts on both of my wrists and on both of them I watch the blood slide down both of my wrist. Why did I do this? Ugh I did this over a guy? I knew i should not have done it...

The bleeding started to stop but there was dried up blood. I go in the bathroom, get a rag, turned on the sink and put water on it, then for each wrist I gently started dabbing it. After I got done with that I just went into bed and I wanted to take a nap.

My eyes started to open slowly when I herd my alarm clock go off. I checked to see what time it was and it was 5 damn! I slept that long? Man a new record for me then. I get up, get dressed, and did my hair and makeup. I walk out of the bathroom and go in the living room and sit down and pull out my phone. I had 3 text messages from Liam.

Liam,

Ashley we need to talk

Liam,

Babe please talk to me

Liam,

I don't wanna lose you

But I was not gonna respond to him at all I get up from the couch and walk into my moms room she was still sleeping

"Mom, hey wake up" I said quietly

She started to move

" Ashley I don't have to work" she told me

"Oh, but do you have a 10 on you, I'm low on gas" I told her

"Ugh no I won't have money til you get after school so your gonna have to ride the bus" she told me

Well that's just great -.-

I shut my moms door and looked at the time. It was 6:33 and the bus comes at 6: 39 I pick up my bag and then walk out of my house. I was standing at the end of my drive way. It was a bit chilly this morning. A couple of minutes later the bus comes. I get on, walk all the way to the back, sit down then I grab my head phones out of my bag and plugged them Into my phone and went on pandora... Well let's see what today brings...

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