A letter to Remember (Completed ✔)

Letter no.38

Chapter 38

confession

"P-paano? Hindi ka naman..." hindi ako makapaniwala sa nangyayari ngayon. After 10 years of waiting and searching, nakita ko na ang hinahanap ko. At sa kasamaang palad, matagal ko na pala siyang nakita. Hindi ko lang alam.

His eyes are full of pain. Para bay nalulungkot siya, tuwing tinitigan niya ang sulat.

"I always came to your school. Mother ana is my aunt, so I have an access to your school. Everytime I go there, I always saw her. She... she was the only one who captured me." Kwento niya habang nakatingin sa sulat. Dahan-dahan siyang napaupo sa sofa. Malapit nang tumulo ang luha sa kanyang mga mata.

"She's always holding a book. She's smiling whenever she reads something delightful. She also frown whenever she reads something painful. She's adorable. And the only thing I can do, is to watched her from a far. And that's insane..." he closed his eyes, and smiled. It's like, he's reminiscing something. Naglakad ako patungo sa kinaroroonan niya.

"M-max.." yun lang ang tanging na sabi ko. Umupo ako sa harapan niya. Bale nasa sofa siya habang ako ay nasa sahig.

"I found her cute. Not until one time, we met at a party. She's invited and so I am. I didn't take off of my eyes at her, the reason why I bump to the other person. And I didn't know, it is her cousin. Cara Dela Cruz. I apologize and at the same time, disappointed. After that incident, I lost her. I tried to find her in the middle of the crowed. And you know what happened next?" Tanong niya sa akin. Umiling naman ako. Ngumiti siya ng malungkot. "May kumalabit sa akin. Paglingon ko, It's her. The girl I was looking for. The girl I was looking from far. The girl I should marrying right now, but... it was too late."

Napasinghap ako. Ibig niyang sabihin, papakasalan niya na dapat ang babae? Pero anong nangyari? Bakit na udlot? Hindi ko maiwasang hindi ma curious sa nangyari.

"We became closed to each other. Her cousin always teased us, nakisali pa nga si Crissa. She blushed and hide her face. We become very closed to each other, yet she didn't know that I loved her. She didn't know that I always came to her school just to see her. Until I wrote this letter for her. A letter to Remember." Ni lingon niya ako at nakita ko at nakita ko ang mata niyang punong-puno nang pangungulila.

"It's alright..." wika ko ng tumutulo na ang luha niya. I didn't know na may bagay palang pwedeng Ikaiyak nang husto ni Max. I knew him for being an ebullient person.

"I-I put it i-inside of her l-locker.." pabulong na ang kanyang boses. Nakatingin lang ako sa kanya. Hinintay ko lang siyang magsalita muli. "Kaya hindi ko alam kung paano iyun napunta saiyo." Wika niya pero habang tunatagal siyabg magsalita, ay mas lalong humihina ang boses niya.

Napalunok ako. "Napulot ko lang ang letter. Galing iyun sa fourth floor" pagpapaliwanag ko.Tinignan niya ako at napailing.

"She didn't know kung sino ang nagpadala nang sulat sa kanya. She told me about that letter, and she thinks that its too romantic yet too creepy. After that scene, we still keep being friends. We are friends until we reach being a lovers. Hell, its one of my happiest day" kwento niya. Napangiti siya ulit na para bang naalala niya ang mga panahong iyun. I can't help but to smile too.

"We became lover for four years and we decided to get married..."huminto siya at bumuntong hininga. Nanatiling nakapikit ang kanyang mata. Ramdam ko ang sakit at pangungulila sa kanya.

"you don't have to tell me what hap--"

" I should. Matagal ko na itong ikinikimkim" wika niya. Napatango nalang ako. Humugot nang malalim na hininga si Max, para ba'y makakuha nang lakas ng loob.