Only Saving Grace I Ever Had (Kellic)

Chapter Twenty Four

*Flashback*
Dear, Vic
Feel proud, you are the only one who will receive a goodbye letter from me.
I wanted to apologize, first of all. I'm so sorry for the things I've done to you. You are my best friend in the person whole world, you always have been, and I love you. Of course, I love you more than friends love friends, and I think you still feel the same way.
We're in love, and I'm so sorry for leaving you, but I'm not sure how to keep going anymore. I haven't seen you in months and I need to see you, I need to.
Your brother doesn't want us to be together. I remember what my father did to me and I've been to therapy, I've tried my hardest to get better but I can't. I'm sorry for everything.
You are the most important thing to me, and you are the reason I lasted as long as I did.
Thank you.
Love, Craig

I read the note over again as I got out of my car into the section of the hospital designated for psychiatric patients.

Craig has been in the hospital for two weeks now and is getting out today, i'm the one picking him up because his mom is at his house making dinner for his "welcome back" get together.

It will consist of me, Mike, my parents, Craig's mom, and a few of Craig's other relatives.

Craig confessed to the doctors about what his dad did to him, and now his mom knows.
His mom is completely heartbroken, she's been a mess, she blames it on herself.

I'm not sure if he'll hurt me again, but even if he doesn't, I just can't be around him.
I can't.

I feel like I'm going to throw up every time I think of him, and if he hurts me again I don't know what I'll do.

I'm so afraid.

"Are you here for Craig?" The nurse at the front desk asked, she's seen me here for Craig on visitation day last week, so she knows why I'm here.

"Yep" I said shakily.
Craig is in a position where he can hurt me again.

In the car, in his room, anywhere.
I'll be around him all night.

When Craig came down the hall, smiling and finally able to wear his regular clothes, I tried to force myself to smile back.

"You're free to go" the nurse smiled sympathetically, Craig smiled back at her and nodded.

When Craig got to me, he crashed into me, wrapping me in one of the tightest hugs I've ever been in.

I felt myself almost cry, not of happiness.
I'm truly terrified.

"Come on, I'll drive you home" the words I spoke almost made me sick.
Will these moments be the last moments I spend feeling at least halfway whole?

"Thank you" Craig said lightly as we headed out of the building and towards the car.

When we got situated in the car, I glanced over to Craig, noticing that he still had the bruise on his neck, yellow and fading now.

As I started the car, Craig pulled the note he had written me from the dash.

Shit.

I should've put that up.
Craig's eyes looked sad as he read over a few sentences and folded it up.

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