Constant and Changing (kryber)

Chapter 62: LA chA TA

There was a dream that Krystal held deep within her heart since before f(x)'s debut. The dream came into existence after f(x)'s final lineup was decided and Krystal gazed upon her precious members for the first time as a whole. She had a vision that one day she would stand on stage with f(x) and hold a spectacular solo concert in front of all of their fans. The fire fueling Krystal's dream came to life on the day of their first LA chA TA stage, burning more brightly with each comeback that f(x) held as a complete five member team.

Then Sulli left the group, and the dream shattered.

Krystal still remembered the day that Sulli announced her decision to leave to the members, springing the unexpected news upon them on an otherwise unremarkable day last August. In Krystal's eyes, the unbreakable bonds that tied the five of them together for over six years had been destroyed in an instant. The powerful vision that she had of their solo concert fell apart before her eyes.

Sulli's departure was an indescribable loss to Krystal and even now she could still feel that pain deep within her heart. But from that loss, Krystal had learned to appreciate what had remained of her precious f(x). With the surviving members at her side, Krystal built her dreams anew.

On the morning of January 29th, 2016, Krystal stood on stage with her members and gazed at the empty seats of the Seoul Olympic Hall with anticipation. The space was cold, lifeless, and dark, but it wouldn't be that way for long. By nightfall, thousands of f(x) fans would fill the seat and watch her dreams--and theirs--come true for the first time.

Krystal turned to Amber and Luna on her left and Victoria on her right, unable to contain a nervous yet excited smile. She could tell from their expressions that her members felt the same. Seven years of blood, sweat, and tears had finally culminated in Dimension 4: Docking Station, a night where they would re-live their journey with each other and bring their experiences to life for their fans. Every song they planned to perform had a history to it, a deeper meaning to the members than the bouncy music and lyrics could ever reveal. But in order to bring their hearts even one step closer to their fans, f(x) would try their best to convey their feelings to their fans tonight.

The final stage rehearsal ended in a flash and night was suddenly upon them. Fans flooded into the concert hall while Krystal and her members stood behind stage in their red blazers and waited for the concert to begin. It was an understatement to say that the members were nervous. Unable to contain her anxiety, Krystal squeezed Amber's hands and began to jump to relieve the extra adrenaline. Even though they had practiced and prepared their hearts out, she suddenly found herself wondering if the four of them would do well tonight.

And in that moment of uncertainty, "Paper Heart" began to play. The noise from the crowd died away instantly as the lights dimmed and the gentle melody played overheard. Filled with curiosity at the sudden change in the crowd's reaction, Krystal couldn't help but peek out at the audience. The view that met Krystal's eyes took her breath away. Shining brightly through the darkness was a periwinkle ocean, a special fan ocean just for f(x). This was the moment that Krystal felt like she had waited an eternity to see. Thousands of fans were waving their light sticks in honor of f(x), and the unified ocean of periwinkle blue was more beautiful than any fan ocean that Krystal had ever seen.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Amber whispered into Krystal's ear, coming up from behind and wrapping her arms around Krystal's waist. Although they still kept their relationship a secret, Amber was reasonably confident that no one would notice the intimate behavior in the darkness backstage. Seeing Krystal's reaction to the periwinkle ocean, Amber couldn't help but feel grateful that she was able to see this side of her girlfriend. The world thought that Krystal was expressionless and unfeeling, but the people close to her knew that Jung Soojung had a heart full of emotion. Amber held Krystal firmly and they swayed to the beat of "Paper Heart" as the periwinkle ocean swayed with them.