Twilight (Fresh Waters)

Chapter 14

I lifted my head from the deer I was drinking from and briefly wiped my lips. I was full for today, and felt too sick and worried to continue anyway. I looked at Emmett.

"I'm going, okay?" I said.

"Sup, bro?" He asked, finishing off his mountain lion and jogging by me.

I shook my head. Emmett, with no hate, had always been my least favourite brother. This was because of his youthful attitude. He always acted like a typical teen human, whereas Jasper and I act fairly sophisticated. He was always so careless and daredevil.

"Nothing" I say.

He wouldn't understand. He looks at me curiously.

"You know, I've never really gotten to know you, Ed" He says.

I cringe at the nickname.

"Edward" he corrects himself.

I shrug.

"I guess not".

"But I know something is nagging at you" he says.

I wait, hoping he'll forget or something. I finally realise that he isn't going to and sigh.

"Bella" I simply state.

He's silent for a moment.

"Mate, you need to take your mind off her. She can fend for herself, I've seen her" He says.

"I know" I say. "I just can't. I mean, why did she leave in the first place? Is there something she knows that we don't?"

He shrugs.

"How about you go see a mate?" He suggests. "Michael? Tom? Earnest?"

Arranging to meet a 'friend' isn't really my thing, I'm more of a closed person. Anyway, how can I have fun with them with everything that's going on, baring in mind they don't even know who I am!? I'd have to pretend that none of its happening, and that won't be easy.

"Thanks, Emmett, but Earnest's a girl" I simply say.

He chuckles.

"So? You need to take your mind of all this".

Maybe he's right. Oh my life, Emmett is actually right for once. If I can pretend none of this is happening, maybe I can transform into a usual teen boy, go to the pub, or something... Play, board..games? I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT BEING 'COOL'! Whatever. I guess the first step is to be 'spontaneous'? So I'll invite them all.

"Alright" I say. "I'll.. Invite them"

Emmett looks at me and rolls his eyes.

"You know, I've never really got you, Edward" He says, and rushes off.

I'm faster than him, but I don't bother to keep up. I stop to lean on a tree, desperate to be alone. It feels like one of those moments where it's quite sad and needs some sad, solo music. I sigh and try to imagine it. I close my eyes. I think of nothing, just let myself let go after all that's happened. I let the sunlight touch me, and I feel myself sparkle crazily. My mouth curves up into a slight smile as I feel the gentle heat on my icy skin, and open my eyes to let the Amber-gold orbs meet the light. I reluctantly blink, but continue to relax. I feel as if I'm sinking, and I may be somewhat close to sleeping. I automatically curl into a ball on the floor, close my eyes, and fall into a deep thought. It's not sleeping, as that's not possible, but it feels like it. As close as I could get. I think of Bella, and take myself back to the times when it was just me, and her. No Nessie, no Rise. Not much of a Jacob. I take myself back to the very beginning, when she was standing there, watching me glitter in the sunlight, not afraid but looking so curious and unusual. Her heartbeat was the best I'd ever heard, and I regret changing her now. I don't regret the honeymoon, as it was one of the best times of my life, but I- I regret letting her carry Nessie. I should have been more careful. It's my fault, and I know everyone would pounce on me if I told them it was, but I shouldn't have made the agreement with Bella. I shouldn't have agreed to the marriage deal- she marries me, I give her what she wanted. I knew it was a stupid idea, but I went along with it. What a stupid vampire I am. I slowly awaken from my daze, and pull out the 'iPhone' Emmett has been raving on about. He bought us all an 'iPhone SE', which I have never used but Emmett has already set up for me. He asked me to obtain Tom, Michael, and Earnest's number, and I gave it to him, so I think he may have added them. I type in my password, a little confused by how this whole thing works. I don't need anything else to think about, so I continue to browse. I click on 'messages' and not surprisingly, my somewhat friends appear. I click on each of them and do something Emmett calls 'Shoot a text'. It says 'Hello. Would you like to meet up at the local pub today? Others will attend'. It feels weird to say 'pub', but I send it anyway. I sigh and stretch. I remember Jacob, and groan. Why does he have to be so damb annoying!? I remember the time when he told Bella he'd imprinted, and chuckle to myself. I begin to kick around some leaves when I'm surprised by a vibrate in my pocket. I pull out my phone. I have a reply from Tom.

'Sure, be there in 10'

I nod and realise the other two have replied too.

Michael- 'Already there 😏'

Earnest- 'Sure 😘😍😚❤️💙💜💘'

Uh. I hope she doesn't get the wrong idea. She knows I'm with Bella! Everyone does. Nobody knows that we have a daughter though, or a grandchild on that. Nessie has never bothered with school, and Bella and I have quit. I now say I'm 19, and so does she, although I'm 17 and she's 18. I guess we met some people over Carlisle's business, but I guess I'm off to the pub right now. No matter how strange that sounds, I guess I have to.