My Baby You'll Be (Laurmani)

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"What if I went to New York instead of California?"

After the brown girl questioned she looked deep in to Lauren's eyes. She was trying to see her true emotion by this. Of course Normani really truly did want to go but she just didn't want to leave Lauren and their dream of California to go after her dream in New York.

Was that even fair? Yes she dreamed of this magical place in NewYork since she was about seven or eight but her and Lauren had been planning to escape to California since they were eleven. And now that it was close. Now that it was reaching distance. Now that their relationship needed this restart, this fresh start, she was second guessing only a month before they were set to go.

Her mother was right by asking the question, Could she see herself able to be so far away from Lauren? She honestly couldn't see it. Lauren had been there since she was five. Lauren was her home. Her love. Her hero. Her sanity. Her super Lo. Her baby.

They had such a complicated relationship but that's what came with love and the love they had bonded them in ways that one couldn't imagine. They weren't technically family but they loved eachother more than they loved most of their blood relatives.

Normani couldn't see herself not able to make a simple call or type a few word text, telling Lauren that she needed her and having Lauren come in almost an instant to hold her close. She couldn't imagine not having that luxury of being in Lauren's arms. She couldn't imagine not seeing the goofy cheesy smile that she had been able to witness for many, many years.

She couldn't imagine not seeing Lauren's flushed face whenever she got nervous around her. She couldn't imagine not seeing the way her hands slightly shook whenever they touched her bare skin, just because of how much she admired it. Mama drea was right she couldn't imagine be so far away from her baby.

The look in Lauren's eyes at this moment was complete horror, terror and utter confusion "Wait... w -what? Why would you do that? What's going on?"

The brown girl didn't respond right away she just looked away, somehow the fear in Lauren's eyes made it that much harder to tell that this was what she was considering.

"Is it me?" Lauren whispered letting go one the brown girls foot, ceasing the massage and shuffling closer to her.

Now her knees were tucked under her as Normani shifted moving her legs so that she was now crisscross apple sauce. Lauren was always so intimate in these hard moments. She always looked Normani straight in the eyes, the brown girl found it hard to do that.

Normani looked up meeting the Latinas eyes that had a faint wash of red over them "It's not you, Lo"

"Well talk to me" she pleaded with her cracking voice, grabbing her hand and squeezing it.

The brown girl sighed and paused trying to find a way to say the words "I ... well, I got offered the last spot at the New York City ballet"

Lauren raised her brows. The statement from Normani made bestfriend Lauren want to grab the brown girls hand and squeal jumping up and down in celebration. She knew how much of a dream this has been for Normani. But Ex girlfriend Lauren wanted to beg her not to go, she wanted to beg her to come to California like they planned.

"Oh?" Lauren responded both trying and failing to hide the hurt in her voice. She slowly let go of the hold she had on the brown girls hand and sat back a little.

"Oh?" Normani questioned eyeing Lauren's reaction. She really didn't know what reaction to expect. But oh? Just oh?

Lauren looked into the brown girls eyes, and she saw the look. The look that always told Lauren when Normani needed her. But the Latina was confused this time. Was Normani just in need of just her support? Was she anxiously waiting for Lauren to tell her to follow her dreams and go for it?