The thing about Rasheen Perpetua is this: as much as he has enjoyed life as a human, he desires his new life as a vampire most.
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Despite the newfound revisions of his daily life, like craving meat and blood, and not getting tired or needing sleep, Rasheen is still very much the same person overall. Yes, he's an immortal, blood-thirsty, creature-of-the-night-style vampire and all, but he thinks of himself as a remodeled version; Rasheen Perpetua 2.0: The Vampire Edition, or someone of the like. Honestly, everything has been relatively the same in his eyes.
Everything but those things that have to do with vampire subjects, such as hiding the vampires-are-real secret and keeping the Covent protected at all costs, that is.
See, Rasheen is still a university student studying environmental science and human geography, sleeping in a dorm room with his best mate, practicing endurance for cross country, and running the frozen yogurt shop at odd intervals throughout the day.
And while things have taken a while to be accustomed to – for example: not snickering during lessons because he knows so much more now, not strolling around campus or working with the lights on during the midnight hours, forcing breaks while running as to not be singled out, and not commenting on how tasty someone smells when they're quite the distance away – he thinks he's handling himself quite alright. There have been some struggles, yes, but he's Rasheen Perpetua, and he's the master of success in all things to be hidden.
Still, though, as cheery as life has been – and trust him, it has been quite grand – there are moments in which he reminisces over who he was pre-bite. Granted, he hasn't changed internally, but he can only help but think that now there is an added factor to him, an extra zest that may or may not be good. However much he believes in that, though, he knows he's more complex than just good or bad, hero or villain; but, again, there are factions within him that believe he's truly done a ninety degree turn in one direction.
Good or bad, hero or villain, the turn is there and his moral compass has been slightly skewed.
Slightly, in its small degree of change, shouldn't concern anyone, though, especially not someone as grandeur him, yet it bothers him either way. He doesn't like this slight turn as it's still a turn. Because...since when has he begun to think it's okay to suck a human dry of their blood, if he has always been a loyal vegetarian and overall good person? Since when has he begun to think it's okay to be so cocky because he knows things others don't, if he has always been so humble in studies? Since when has he been someone so ignorant of someone else's needs, if he has always been generous toward everyone though he may not like them or agree with them in the slightest? Since when has been so restless, if he has always had ways of getting rid of said energy and running if nothing works? Since when has he been a person to comment how nice or even delicious a person looks and smells, if he has always been a feminist against all forms of cat-calling?
Since when? Since when has he thought or acted upon such whims?
Since when? Someone please tell me when!
So, maybe becoming a vampire has affected him in more than one way – which is one more than he'd like to admit. Maybe it has; and maybe it's his beginning, or maybe it's his downfall. Who knows? Who truly knows, except for the voice inside himself, his conscious muttering little things to keep the storm alight, but the rages within at bay before release?
When, how, why?
I need to know when, and how, and why! Someone, please, tell me!
When: since the beginning.
