S.H.I.E.L.D Is The Enemy

Normal?

Makenna~
      It is all I can do to no go insane in this med bay. Cho wants me to stay for another night, just to make sure that I am really okay. But, it has already been 4 days since I woke up and I am so tired of just sitting here or sleeping. The team hasn't been to see me at all. Other than Steve. He's been the only one I've seen. 

       "Hey." Speak of the devil. "How are you feeling?" Steve asks.
      "Same as yesterday. I'm fine." I say snappily. I can see that Steve is hurt and I cross my legs."I'm sorry. I'm just . . .  tired of being in here. I need to get back out there. I need to be in the field, where I don't have time to think. Because when I start to think, I remember everything. All the hurt and the pain and I can't . . . I can't deal with that again." I take a breathe. 
        "I get it. I was in the ice for 70 years. When I woke up the last thing I wanted to do was be cooped up in some medical lab." He grabs my hand and I just stare. Then I get up from the bed and walk to the window overlooking the living room. 
        "It's not the same. I blew up the only thing I had left of my Mom and Dad. Phil won't even talk to me. My brother and best friend tried to kill me. And I can't figure it out because I feel so weak!" I start to tear up. 
         "What do you mean weak? Don't your powers help heal you faster?" I look at the ground," Wait, they do . . . don't they?" I look at him. "What's going on?"
         "I don't know anymore." I say," When I woke up I knew something was wrong. But, I didn't understand how wrong. I haven't been able to use my powers since I woke up. It's like they all of a sudden just left. And my eyes aren't white anymore. So either my powers have gone dormant or . . . they got the drug and it's out there somewhere." Steve's eyes light up but when he sees mine he gets a questioning look on his face. 
         "Isn't that what you wanted?" He asks. 
         "I thought it was but, now I just feel empty. Like all of the strength in me just left. And if I don't have that in me someone else has to deal with that. And I would rather I have it then one innocent person out there somewhere." I turn around. "We have to find it Steve." He nods.
          "It's a good thing I got you released from medical then." I hug him. "We should go talk to your brother." I take a breathe and we walk to the cage. The one they that kept me and Loki in. When we get there Brian and Lilly are leaning against the side of the cage. I take a breathe and leave Steve's side. I Step on the walk way by the door. Lilly looks up at me and jumps up. 
          "Makenna-" I hold my right hand up.
         "Save it. I don't care about what you have to say. You hurt me and I will never forgive you for what you did." She just looks at me. "Brian," I say looking away from her. "Where was the drug supposed to go after you got it out of me?" I ask. He gets up and comes over to stand in front of me. 
         "In a chamber behind the glass where we were. Why?" He asks. I turn around and walk away." Why?" He asks again. I turn back to face him. 
          "Because it worked," I say turning around and leaving the room.
          The team had assembled and we are all headed to the house. We are in the quinjet. Clint and Natasha are flying. Stark, Barry, Wanda, and Vision are all making plans for when we get to the house. Steve is sitting by me talking about what being frozen was like. 
          "Steve," I interrupt him," Can I get something off my chest?" He nods. "So earlier when you asked me if this was what I wanted . . . I lied." He looks at me," This is all I have ever wanted. I wanted to be normal. I wanted to be able to have kids and not have them in danger. I am scared, Steve." 
          "Why?"
         "I want to do everything. I want to see everything. I don't want to be that thing again. Yet, I keep getting this feeling like all this hope I have is going to go away. And I'm scared because I don't want it back. I want to be normal." He hugs me and I just kind of stay there. 
        "It's normal to want that and to have dreams. Don't be scared of being normal." He lets go of my hand as we land. He smiles at me and I smile back at him.

         When we reach the house the team and I go to the house. We all go to different sections of the wreckage and start to move rubble around. When I am moving it around I come across a picture frame. It is cracked and most of the picture is gone but there is enough to see that it was the family picture we took right before my mom got pregnant. 
          I look around. I caused this. All of this destruction was my fault. I look to my right as I hear a little girl giggle. The girl can be no more than 8. She has her doll in her arms and is playing around with it. I smile. 
        All of a sudden the rubble starts to rumble. I look over to Steve and see a white mold of a person standing there. The drug. The little girl giggles again and the the drugs head looks over to her. Everything turns into slow motion then. The blob starts to fly towards the little girl and before I know what I am doing I run towards her too. The girl hears me coming and looks up. She sees the blob and gets scared but doesn't move. 
       "No!" I yell as I jump in front of the little girl, protecting her. The drug hits me and I fly back. The drug starts to absorb back into my body and I can't focus on anything. 
       "Makenna!" Steve yells. He comes over to me, but it's too late. The drug is already back inside of me. He picks me up and leans me against his body. 
        "Is she okay?" I ask. 
        "She's fine. And I swear we will find a way to get this out of you ... for good. I promise."