(Jalex) The First Step Towards Repair

Nothing's making sense at all

Chapter 21

Tried to open up my eyes

I'm hoping for a chance to make it alright

When I wake up, the dream isn't done

I wanna see your face and know I've made it home

If nothing is true,

what more can I do?

I am still painting flowers for you.

Alex

(In Coma)

I woke up with a jolt, looking around me. It was completely dark... I couldn't see at all. Am I blind? I started to panic, studying my surroundings frantically. "Hello?" I called out, trying not to sound scared. But I was. I could feel myself trembling slighly and I brought my knees to my chest, hugging them tightly. "It's going to be okay," I whispered to myself, rocking backwards and forwards slightly. Where was Jack?

Suddenly, I heard whispers. It was inaudible to me - too soft. I strained to hear what the soft voices were saying, but to no avail. Soon the whispers died down and I let out a frustrated sigh. Where the fuck am I? I stood up, feeling around me, trying to find my way out somehow. Everything was just... pitch black.

And I'm scared.

My legs soon got weary after all that walking. I sat down in defeat and buried my hands in my face.

When will this nightmare end?

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As the days pass by, the voices grew louder. Slightly. Verry little, but I could tell the difference. These voices were slightly infuriating, but it was better than silence.

Every day, I walked ahead. I'm not sure if I'm walking towards the exit of this place, or if I'm walking further away from it. But the voices. The voices were getting louder. That means I'm on the right path.

Right?

Right.

I missed Jack so terribly.

His smile, and those beautiful brown eyes that sparkle with happiness at the smallest things. His unique laugh and adorable giggle.

I missed every single aspect of him.

Where could he be?

Please find me, Jack.

I miss you so much.

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I don't know how long it has been. The voices were much louder now, but I couldn't grasp those words properly. And sobbing. I could hear sobbing. I frowned. Where was the sobbing coming from? I bit down on my lip. Why'd anyone be sobbing?

"Hello?" I called out. Maybe that person needed some consoling. Maybe s/he was lost, too.

Wouldn't hurt to help.

No one responded, but the sobbing was still present.

"Are... are you okay?" I called out again. Still no response.

I let out a sigh. I guess I was alone, huh? But where did the sobbing come from?

Soon, the voices faded away, and the sobbing did too.

I got exhausted from all the walking again and decided to sit down.

Please let this nightmare end.

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I woke up again with a jolt. There was a voice.

And that voice was familiar.

Jack's.

I sat up and listened intently. What was he trying to say?

'... sleeping for quite a while now, Alex,'

Sleeping? What do you mean sleeping?

"Jack? Jack! Where are you? Jack?" I said. I felt hopeful. Jack was here. And I'll get a way out.

He didn't reply, and went quiet for a bit. I frowned.

"Jack? Are you alright?"

Still no response.

He continued again,

'You got loads of homework piled up for you. That's what you get for sleeping for so long, 'Lex,' I heard him say, followed with a chuckle. I furrowed my brows in confusion. What do you mean? I'm not asleep...

I let my mind wander. What exactly does he mean?

Then I remembered.

I watched as the vehicle shone its headlights at me and I raised my arm to block from the blinding light. I was rooted to the spot. Everything happened so quickly.

The car rammed into my frail body just as the driver rapidly slammed on the brakes. I flew, flew towards the road behind of me, and my body slammed against the floor. I felt something wet and warm trickling down my head. Blood.

The darkness began to envelop my vision.

I let out a gasp.

So I was in coma?

I heard Jack again, his voice filled with sadness and pain. 'You've gotta wake up, Alex. You have to.'

'I need you.'

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The first thing I heard was the beeping of the machines. I shifted slightly, feeling a bit uncomfortable. My eyes fluttered opened and I glanced around, before my eyes fixated on the person that sat on the stool.

"Jack?" I murmured, looking at him dazedly before sitting up on the bed. There was a throbbing pain in my head and I winced slightly. I watched as a grin appeared onto Jack's face. At that moment, the pain that I felt earlier had faded. My lips curled up into a smile as well. I studied his face. Same old, same old, except...

My smile faltered, a gloomy frown appearing in its place. "Jack, what happened?" I queried, studying him more intently now. He was a bit different. Why was he wearing a long-sleeve shirt?

I gazed at his expression. What used to be the happy sparkle present in his eyes vanished, replaced by a certain emptiness. "Why are you wearing a long sleeved shirt...?" His smile had faded completely when I asked the question. Something buried deep in my mind clicked.

He's cutting himself, isn't he?

I went silent for a moment. Why?

It was all my fault, wasn't it?

"Nothing... it's nothing. Don't worry about me. Just... work on recovering, okay?"

I nodded quietly, deciding that maybe he could open up to me if he wanted to.

I scanned my surroundings. It was apparent that I was in a hospital ward, with all the ugly green furniture and the depressingly sick atmosphere. Plus the fact that I was in a rather uncomfortable bed, with a needle poked into my arm.

The joys of being in a hospital.

I don't know how I got into a car accident... Everything's a little hazy. I tried my best to remember, but it caused a headache. I frowned, putting my left arm to my head and squeezing my eyes shut.

"Lex? Hey, are you okay?" I heard a voice filled with concern and I opened my eyes, turning to look at Jack. I smiled.

"I'm fine, Jack. Don't worry," I reassured him.

"Do you need me to get the doctor?" He wasn't convinced.

"Babe, you're all that I need for everything to be okay," I murmured before winking. He let out a laugh.

"You fuck."

"Mmm, we can do that later, when I get better," I said cheekily. Jack flushed, muttering something under his breath.

Suddenly I heard something vibrating and he fished in his pocket for his phone. "Your mum just texted me. I forgot. I'm gonna tell her you woke up, she'll be really fucking happy."

I nodded in agreement. "Yeah," I smiled weakly. Jack typed in something and sent the message before placing his phone on top of the small counter next to him. I watched as he ran his hand through my hair, smiling fondly at me and placing a kiss on my forehead.

"Love you, 'Lex," he murmured.

"Love you too, Jack."

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A/N: ALRIGHT SO HERE WE HAVE CHAPTER 21. I'm probably gonna stop at Chapter... 40? Maybe lesser, maybe more. I'm thinking the Christmas chapter is the final chapter, so basically you guys have seen the ending.

But you know, I might do a little changes... this isn't exactly my confirmed plan yet.

Nonetheless, hope you enjoyed the chapter!

P.S I dedicate chapters to friends/people who I noticed have stuck around from the beginning/near the beginning, and that's really cool.