Fifty Shades of Dove and Grenade

Randi's Opinion

Randi's Point of View:

When he said that, I wanted to rip his head off. My anger stirred over the fact that he thinks everything is fixed when he holds his daughter.
"Don't think this fixes anything." I stated in the calmest tone I could muster.
"I know it doesn't," Da Kurlzz stared at Jordan holding Allissa "but I thought if he lost you, I wouldn't want him to lose her either. I already know he's hurting himself from losing you, and I don't want him to hurt more."
He's hurting himself?! I didn't think he felt that bad.
"Is it true, Jordan?" I asked.
He nodded, and set Allissa in Johnny's arms as he proceeded to roll up the sleeves of his hoodie, revealing an ocean of cuts on his arms.
Staring at the scars of guilt sketched on his wrists and up his arms, I started crying realizing he really did care.
"Jordan, you-you really do feel bad, don't you?"
He nodded as geysers of tears exploded from his eyes. "They really hurt, but not as much as the thought losing you or even her-" he shyly smiled through his tears at his daughter "I'd rather be dead than suffer through a life without you."
That was the sweetest thing I ever heard him say. I think: "How can I divorce him if he cares that much?"
I hug him tightly, and start crying on his shoulder. He wraps his arms around me like a boa constrictor. His tears land on my hair like rain.
"Thank you." He whispers through sniffles "Thank you so much."
Hearing these words, sends my tear factory into overdrive. I grab his jacket, and pull him so close to me, that I can hear his heart beat. It's beating as if was about to be demolished by a pack of wolves. I smell cigarettes, beer, and bacon on his breath, oddly not a bad combo.
Tracing the scars on his arms, I remembered how I reacted to the truth. It's true he cheated on me, but seeing the way he loves Allissa made me realize that he cared about and loved his family, even though he made her on accident. His true feelings plus that handed me the courage and compassion to forgive him.
He kisses the top of my head as his fingers twirl my hair like a baton. He settles two fingers on the bottom of my chin, and lifts my head up so I'm staring directly at him.
"Jordan, what're you-"
His kiss blocks my words. I'm shocked, but I close my eyes and kiss him back. His body quivers as his lips stamp themselves with mine. I stroke his back as a way of reassuring him that it's ok. In response, his mouth opens a little bit, and his tongue slithers out of it into my mouth. My tongue uses the mind of its own, and starts licking his.
It felt like eternity since I last kissed him. I forgot how amazing he tastes. His hands lower to my waist and pull me closer (if it's even possible) as I lose myself in him.
My heart races as my hand feels his bare back. It's softer than silk. I trace over every bone, tattoo, and scar he's ever received. My other hand tussles his short, brunette hair. I can tell he just showered, it's still damp. However, I don't mind, I just want to be kissing him forever.
I feel a smile stretch on his lips as his tongue twists itself with mine. He proceeds to kiss me harder than he has in eternity. His stubble itches a little, but at the same time it feels like heaven.
I suddenly hear footsteps. I can tell whoever's making them is in dress shoes, the heels click like computer keys, they click louder than sirens as the owner approaches us.
The owner of the clicks speaks in a husky voice, as if he just finished a few cigars "Mr. and Mrs. Terrell-"
I pry my lips from Jordan's, it's impossible to restrain myself from kissing him harder.
"Yes?" I ask as Jordan still hugs me tightly.
"It's noon. Are you two still getting divorced?"
I glance at Jordan. He smiles at me, it's sweeter than root beer.
My eyes spin from him to Allissa. I think: Your daddy cares too much about the both of us. I can't do this to you.
I notice Matthew, Kate, George, and Daniel stare at the man in dress shoes. Their looks say "Seriously?! They just made out in front of you. Do you think they're gonna get divorced?!"
"No, we're not. How could I divorce him?" I smile at the man as I quickly peck Jordan's lips.
"Well, the other day, you were here saying he was the most selfish person you ever knew."
Jordan rolls up his sleeves, and glared at the man "How is this selfish?! These are for her and my daughter."
"Well, they're cuts, sir-" the man cringes at his scars.
"I cut them for my family. I cut them to show how much I care about them, and how much it would hurt if I lost them. I DID THIS BECAUSE I LOVE THEM!!!"
He bursts into tears, and starts crying furiously on my shoulder.
"Ok, ok. No need to overreact." The man muttered as he threw away the divorce papers that were never signed, and walked away, his clicks vibrating against my ears.
Once he was out of earshot, Jordan finally calmed down enough to whisper "I'm s-sorry *snif* Randi...I h-*snif* had to sa-say it..."
"I don't blame you," I whisper, still hugging him "I would've done the same."
He smiles mischievously and bites my neck "You wanna kiss some more?"
I glance at everyone, they smile as if saying "go on", but I detect cringes behind their happiness.
I peck Jordan's cheek "Maybe later."
"Saving it for home are we?" Danny smiles pervertedly.
"We'll try not to get too freaky deaky." Jordan snickers back.
The second the last syllable escapes from his lips, Johnny starts snickering. Kurlzz smiles, and joins him. Within six-tenths of a second, everyone is laughing and enjoying themselves.
Throughout the laughter, I wonder about Allissa. Where will she go? Will she stay with Matt?
As soon as the giggles die down, I express that thought amongst everyone.
"I honestly don't know, but I think if Jordan wants her to stay with him, she can." Kate answered "Throughout this, he's the bravest one out of all of us, and he loves her the most."
I'm honestly shocked Kate thought that.
"It's hard to keep the fact that you're a dad a secret." Kate added, staring at Allissa.
Jordan smiled at her, "Is it ok with everyone if my little girl stays with me for right now?"
It was unanimous. Everyone nodded in unison, including me.
Jordan loved her too much for any of us to say no. Besides, she's kinda cute.
Thinking about what just unfolded, I remembered that Da Kurlzz was going to say something.
"Kurlzz, weren't you going to say something?" I asked, a sudden smile plastering my face.
"I was, but you've already solved your problem." He smiled, glancing at Kate as if he was debating whether to talk to her or not.