This is the most fun we've ever had

Chapter 15

I awoke with my head on the window . The sun was beginning to go down .i checked my phone and realised there was only 5 minutes of the journey left.I played crossly road until the train stopped at kings cross.

I got off the train and called a taxi to take me home .

LE TIME SKIP

I pulled out my keys and opened the door .There was no lights on inside .I walked quietly upstairs and went into the living room.Phil was lying In a ball on the  sofa with my attack on Titan jumper on and  a mini Dan toy in his hand soundly of to sleep. I sat next to him and stroked  his head .he opened his eyes sleepily and smiled .
"Hi my little Philly ."I whispered
"Hewo bear " he said sounding like a three year old .
"Let's get you into bed "
"No sleep on the sofa with me "
"Ok "
He lay like a starfish and I took off my coat and T-shirt and lay on his chest .i pulled the blanket that was on the back of the sofa over us and told Phil about every thing that happened .

What I didn't tell him was that I felt bad.I knew my mother was the one who was wrong in all of this ,but .... I felt like I had let her and Adrian down .She spent every last penny she had on sending me to university and all I did was throw it all away .I made videos more than I revised ,I visited Phil more than I should of , she spent all the money she was saving for a new house and gave it to me to flunk university.

How could she not be disappointed in me .I am the reason Adrian will never go to collage .My mother thinks the same will happen to him  and he will be living back with her and my grandma .Adrian's hopes and dreams of becoming a doctor are ruined because of ........me .It has not been easy for her in the past with my dad dying and then my grandpa . My dad was never supportive of me .he said that YouTube was a big waste of talent .But like they could say anything. I lived with my grandma for the first 16 years of my life because she said I was a mistake . And then they had Adrian and told him that I was the one who moved out when I was twelve .He had never believed me because of what or own parents said about me .I could never be the brother I wanted .Because of them but I still felt bad ...I didn't know why .......I just did.

I drifted off with the thoughts still twisting round my brain like a snake on a branch but I tried to let them melt away it just wasn't working .