𝐁𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐒. ( 𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐓𝐒 ) ✓

xlvi. ANGER

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Bucky always made you feel safe. After the mental trauma of his Winter Soldier days, the last thing he wanted to do was hurt you whether it be mentally, physically or emotionally. This was always Bucky's number one priority; not wanting to hurt you. He'd made sure you always knew that and he told you, practically everyday, that he loves you more than he could explain and would never dare lay a hand on you. You never really understood why he was so cautious around you. Of course you'd never be afraid of him.

However, there was only ever one instance in which you felt you feared Bucky, even if it was only for a second.

You had completely lost track of time when spending a night out with Wanda. Your phone had died and so, you didn't even realise that it was actually 4am when you finally returned to your shared apartment with Bucky.

You tried to enter as quietly as possible, assuming he would be asleep but instead when you pushed the door open you were met with a very unhappy Bucky. "Hey Buck, I thought you'd be asleep-"

"You thought I'd be asleep when you weren't home at 4am?" You jumped slightly at the volume of Bucky's voice. He'd never sounded this aggressive with you, let alone look as furious as he currently did. "I-I'm sorry. I just ran out of charge on my phone and I lost track of time. I'm sorry. I didn't know it was that big of a deal." You shrugged, trying to move closer to Bucky and ease the tension of the situation. Instead of agreeing and accepting your half apology as he normally would, he stumbled backwards and pushed your hands away from him and back towards your chest.

"What do you mean it wasn't that big of deal? Do you even know the kind of things I've seen happen to people? The kind of things I've done to people? How do you think I was supposed to feel when you weren't home when you said you would be and you weren't answering any of my goddamned messages?" Bucky's voice was escalating in anger and he was minimising the proximity between the two of you. So, naturally, when he raised his hand you flinched

You open your eyes after a couple of seconds to find that Bucky simply raised his hand to his hair to push back stray strands that had fallen during the 'argument'. His expression of anger was replaced by confusion and you almost winced again, knowing you could have made the situation worse than it was before.

"Hey," Bucky's voice was much softer and if you weren't so close to him, you might not have heard him at all. "Hey, did you think I was gonna-"

"No, it was just, y'know, a reflex reaction. I didn't mean to imply anything I just..." You sighed and began to feel tears pool up at the brim of your eyes. You already didn't deal well with people shouting at you and now you feared that you'd upset Bucky.

"I wouldn't hit you. Never, okay?" You nodded, still looking towards the ground and avoiding eye contact. Bucky tilted your head up towards his own and his lips connected with yours. When you pulled away he pressed a soft kiss to your forehead and wiped away the tears wetting the surface of your cheeks.

"I'm sorry, doll. I was just worried. I didn't mean to scare-"

"You didn't scare me. You could never scare me, lil' Bucky Bear."

"You gotta stop talking to Steve."