I Hate That I Love You (JeffxJane)

What We Could've Been 7

"Jeff! I-I can't go with you."

"Why?" His blue eyes stared deeply into my soul.

"I need to go." I shook my head.

"Go where?" He asked

"Back home." He frowned.

"Jane, we're in your room. What other place would you call home?"

Keep it together Jane. Stay strong, you can do it.

"I'm not supposed to be here." I admitted, regret in my tone. I knew I shouldn't have been so keen on making Jill do this for me... she was right. The things I saw did change me.

"What do you mean?" He was confused. Who wouldn't be right? How do I just explain all this? I can't just explain like "Hey! Just wanted to say that, I came from a different world and you're just a figment of my imagination." He'd think I'm crazy!

I can't back out now though. I'm starting to fade.

"I mean -sigh- I'm not from this world." He looked skeptical about about what I just said.

"You're just a dream..... just like everything else here." I added.

"I'm not real? Then is everything fake? The things we went through, everything that happened between us.... isn't real?" I nodded, looking down on the floor.

I didn't expect that I'd develop feelings for him.... I just wanted to spend time with my family again.

"So.... we aren't real either? Did you even feel anything when I said I liked you?" He looked hurt.

Did he really doubt my feelings for him?

I had tears in my eyes and I couldn't take it anymore... I hugged him never wanting to let go.

"No.... of course not. I-I really do like you.... its just that- I... we- you're...this isn't real..." I mumbled, my grip on him tightened.

" Jane... please, stop crying. It hurts me to see you this way." He hugged back, to comfort me. I sobbed as I leaned on his shoulder. I don't want to leave this place..... even if it is a lie, even if it is fake.

I just want to stay with him.

"Shhhh..... I'ts okay. It's okay.... I may not be real. But I'll always stay in your memories." He said trying to calm me down. I wish the real you could be like this. I wish we never became like monsters.... but that's life right? You don't always get what you want. I just have to learn to accept it.

But just because I know this... It doesn't make the pain any less bearable.

That no matter how hard I wish... I know the real him would never hold me this way.

The thought made me cry harder.

"If it makes you feel any better... I kinda noticed." He scratched his cheek... he's got a habit of doing that when he's admitting something.

"How?" I sniffled, I didn't make it that obvious did I?

"Well, for one: you are bad at lying." We separated and he pinched my nose. I scoffed.

"Two: you seem to know a lot more than you should and tend to prepare for sh*t that's not even happening yet.

Three: you always know how to be at the right place at the right time.

It kinda gives off the impression that you came from the future." He shrugged

"I guess that's somewhat true..... (man, who would've known you were this observant?)" I commented to myself, he heard it though.