Patience ➳ Shawn Mendes

Chapter 9

I sat in my room after school on Monday, thinking back on Saturday and how Shawn shocked me. 

Aaliyah and I came back downstairs and her parents had thanked me for talking to her after she apologized to them. Shawn just stood there dumbfounded. It was as if he had no idea what just happened and didn't know what to think of it. 

We still had 20 minutes until dinner would be ready so Shawn and I went back outside. Our assignment was done before dinner was ready and I stayed until late, just talking and laughing with Karen, Manuel and Aaliyah. I noticed Shawn had been very silent. 

It was already 11 when Shawn said he'd drive me home. I went to the bathroom first before entering the living room again. When I did, I found Shawn talking closely and silently with his parents. Aaliyah had already gone up after coming down to say bye. When they heard me entering, they stopped talking and Shawn drove me home. 

It was dead silent during the ride. We had been sitting in the car for over 10 minutes in front of my house until Shawn broke it. 

"Go out with me?" 

I was shocked after that and just opened and closed my mouth. I didn't know what to say, he had been my crush for years- ever since I saw him on Vine- and I was damaged, there he was, asking me out. He had told me not to worry about it because he knew I'd say yes sometime. 

He had left me and went home while he left me to my thoughts. I came up with some more cons than pros so I decided against but I also knew what he said was true, I'd say yes sometime. 

Today, it had been as if nothing happened. We just went about our day as usual until we were at my house. We had agreed to study at my place because his parents had some people over and he would be distracted. He wanted to go to Ian's place, who is a great guy by the way, but he was having some family over so he couldn't come. I invited him over then which he gladly accepted. 

We had come here and we actually studied until it was time for him to leave. I had walked him to his car and once there he asked me out again. This time I actually just said no and he laughed it off, saying he'd get his yes. 

After he left, I was home alone. Mom and Dad were still gone with Clarissa and Ollie and I was home alone. I had no idea what to cook and I had nearly no money for take out.  

I had ingredients for something simple though, such as a spaghetti- one of the only things I can make. 

Mom never lets me help her in the kitchen and unlike my brother and sister, I didn't go to culinary school so I hadn't taken cooking classes. I could prepare basic things though and if I only have to heat it up, I should be fine. 

My phone started ringing when I was cooking. "Hello?" 

"Are we talking English now?" Aleksandra teased in a really bad British accent. 

"Aleksandra!" I exclaimed. "Ik had geen idee dat ge zou bellen." 

"Ik ook niet. Ik ben nu op school en heb nu geen les. Je weet wel, donderdag en zo?" She asked. 

"Tuurlijk. Hoe gaat het in België?" 

"'t is saai zonder u hier, kunt ge niet terug komen?" 

I laughed. "Je weet dat ik niet terug kan komen en eigenlijk wil ik het ook niet. Ik zit goed hier, ik vind het leuk hier. Ik bedoel, niemand weet hier van mijn verleden terwijl bijna iedereen het wist in België. Ik heb een nieuwe start." 

"Alles wat je wou." She said softly. 

"Alles wat ik wou. En nu heb ik het. Is Laura daar al?"