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Life Update: The Truth

Hey guys... long time no talk. It's been a long time sense I've been on here and I can't tell you how much I miss all of you. I guess y'all want an explanation on where I exactly went or what's happened to me and quite frankly... I don't really know. I wouldn't be honest if I said I was okay, that life was good, that I was doing good. At the beginning of 2016 I was sexually assaulted by someone I thought never would and sadly this event has altered who I am, and how I deal with life and heartbreakingly enough now I deal with anxiety, ptsd, and clinical depression.  I haven't been this lost, this sad, this hurt ever in my life. I feel broken, I don't feel like the same person I was before. I'm numb, no feeling, no drive to finish my works, to move on with my life, and I hate it. I have anxiety attacks almost everyday, nightmares every night where I barely get any sleep, and it's getting harder and harder to trust people or be around anyone or be happy... I don't think I've been happy in a long time guys. I'm telling you all of this not because I'm wanting to be brave, I'm telling you this because as the people that have supported me for almost four years you all are like family and I love all of you. I'm so sorry I've disappeared, I just really don't know where my life will go at this point. I'll be graduating in a year, I'll be an adult, and I have no plan ahead of me. I will try to keep updating my work 'sprinter' but my unfinished hunger games books I will be giving away to people that still have the dream and the drive for writing like I did once. I adore each and every one of you, and if you're interested in continuing what I can't please DM me or comment below... much love.

                                                           Maddie