He stayed quiet with the same dumbfounded look on his face, for exactly four minutes. I decided to break the overbearing silence, I was beginning to regret telling him about the baby. I didn't want to have his baby, but I loved him. I know that's weird, but it was the straightforward truth. Confusing right?
"I don't want it though," I said quickly fidgeting with the doorknob on the door.
All I wanted to do was leave so I could find a job.
Jashaun's head sprung up from my statement and he glared at me with an indescribable look. I couldn't tell if he was mad or sad.
Before I could say anything he had already gripped my arm and was now breathing hard in my face. All I could do was stare into his brown eyes.
"You keeping my baby,".
"But I don't want it," I retorted.
"Did you really just say that?" He questioned in a stern voice as he pushed me backwards until my back hit the wall. Now, I was breathing hard too.
"I'm not ready for a baby Jashaun, and you definitely aren't ready for a baby," I explained.
"How are you going to tell me what I'm ready for?" He asked angrily.
"You're not even ready to marry me, how are you ready for a baby?".
"A baby and Marriage are two different things Eva!".
"I don't want to have a baby with you Jashaun," I finally admitted.
He didn't have a comeback. He actually looked really hurt by my honesty. The truth was out, I didn't want to have a baby with Jashaun.
"Since the first time I met you, I wanted to make you mine. I wanted to buy you everything. I met some guy and he told me about a quicker and better way to get money, instead of selling drugs. I just needed a quick job. Being a porn star didn't seem so bad at the moment, all I saw was the stack of money he had for me. I got caught up Eva. That's why I was always so stressed out, I was having sex with those girls then coming home and kissing up on you. I never meant to hurt you Eva,".
By the time Jashaun had finished talking I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I still loved him. I could never stop loving him, even as much as I wanted to.
"I'm sorry Eva, I love you so much and I ju-,".
"Shut up," I stated calmly.
"Eva I said I was sorry," He said.
"Shut up and kiss me,".
He sighed in relief before he smiled brightly, showing off his vampire teeth. I haven't seen him smile in a long time. He wasted no time fulfilling my request. In one swift moment he had grabbed my face in between the palms of his hands and roughly pressed his lips against mine. He kissed me roughly, as if he'd been yearning for my lips. I didn't really like the roughness of the kiss but I didn't say anything.
"Eva, I missed kissing you," Jashaun breathed.
Before I could respond to his comment he had already put his lips onto mine again and his fingers quickly crawled into the front of my pants. I tried to pull away but the more I attempted to pull back, the more closer he leaned in. I mumbled against his lips, but of course he ignored me.
Eventually I pulled away and glared nervously at Jashaun. He smiled and went to lean in again but I pressed my hand against his chest.
"I want to make love this time,".
He stared at me, a confused look on his face.
"Make love?" He asked as he scrunched up his face disappointment clearly taking over his demeanor.
"Yes,".
"I don't know how to make love," He responded shyly.
I grabbed his hand and pressed it against my lips, planting soft kisses on it.
"I'll show you," I smiled as I grabbed his hand and led him upstairs to my room I stayed in while I lived with Ali.
Once we got into the room I continued placing soft kisses onto Jashaun's hand, he just stared down at me as his breathing increased in speed.
I stepped in front of him, pushing him gently until he fell on the bed. I climbed on top of him, teasing him with a soft kiss on the lips. As my kisses trailed lower Jashaun grabbed a chunk of my hair. As I kissed the outlining of his V-line he groaned in anticipation. I pulled my head up and smiled at him. His head shot up and he looked at me like I was crazy. I giggled softly at his reaction. He really thought I was going to give him oral, again. In a hasty movement he had flipped me over and now he was the one smiling down at me. He grabbed the waistband of my jeans and pulled down until they were at my ankles, I kicked them off anxiously. I watched as Jashaun slowly slid my boy shorts down until he was staring at my treasure.
"I missed you," He uttered before he lowered his head into my treasure.
I arched my back once I felt his tongue slid in between. He sucked my clit into his mouth and devoured viciously. Every time I tried to say something moans escaped my lips. He licked and sucked until I felt my orgasm approach.
"Ja-ja-jashaun," I stammered as I tried to crawl away.
He held onto my stomach, lightly pushing down until I released into his mouth. After I released my breath had came back and I sighed dramatically, calming down a bit. Jashaun licked his lips slowly as he came up and kissed me. I couldn't control myself anymore, I flipped us over so that I was in control now. Jashaun looked shocked at my sudden movement but he layed back, with his hands behind his head. I quickly unbuckled his pants, yanking them down until they were dangling at his ankles and he kicked them off. I took off his boxers and stroked his hardness. He moaned softly, closing his eyes. I rubbed it against my treasure, and once it was lubricated I slid down onto him. We both groaned. It had been a while since we felt each other.
"Eva," Jashaun whined as I rotated my hips.
I missed the feeling of him being inside of me. I began to bounce on him and the feeling of pleasure increased drastically.
"Yesssssss ughhhh fuuuuu.....," I bit my lip to stop myself from cursing.
Jashaun held my hips in place.
"Are we hurting the baby?" He asked seriously.
"No," I said, trying not to sound aggravated but I was.
Jashaun nodded as he let go of my hips and I continued bouncing up and down on him until I felt another orgasm rolling through my body.
As I collapsed on his chest I could hear his heart pumping. He wrapped his arms around my back and we let the silence take over.
"Are you still seeing other girls, including Jasmine," I asked while I stared at the white wall beside me.
Jashaun chuckled. "You picked a fine time to ask,".
I sat up off of his chest.
"I'm serious,".
He pulled me back down into a hug.
"No," He responded.
I smiled into his chest. This moment was perfect.
***
"Eva, get up,".
I groaned as my eyes softly fluttered open, immediately being greeted by the sunlight peering through the open blinds. I jumped up, wrapping my blanket around my naked body.
"W-wheres Jashaun?".
"He left earlier this morning, he told me to tell you to call him," She responded before she shrugged nonchalantly. "Seems like you had a good time yesterday. You slept all day,".
I swallowed hard in nervousness before I grabbed my phone from off of my dresser.
"Yeah, um where's Zarina?".
"She's downstairs eating breakfast," She said.
"Okay um," I pushed a strand of hair from out of my face, behind my ear. "I'll be down in a couple minutes,".
She nodded slowly, then she disappeared from my room.
