I'm One of You Now - A Coral Girl Fanfic || COMPLETED

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Today is the mock meet! I made a huge fool of myself at Spirit Week. Annie and I ended up getting into a face off. I give it to her, she won Decade day. Anyways, we're now warming up floor. I can't wait to perform my new floor routine! It was three passes in it. The first one is the biggest one. Round off, bh, 1 and 1/2 twist front pike. I was practicing it throughout the whole Spirit week. We went up to the judges and saluted.
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I was up first. I walked out onto the blue floor proudly and got into position. My music started and I was ready for my pass.

I DID IT! I took one step forward, but that's fine. The rest of the routine was really good, Coach Mary gave me double high fives when I walked off. I impatiently waited for my score to show up on the board.

Stephanie S. - 9.1

For my first level 9 mock meet and doing that routine in front of the judges, I say that's a really good score in my opinion.
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Next is bars. I was really nervous for my pak salto. I haven't really practiced it at all...

After warm ups, I wasn't first. Good. It was Annie's turn and I watched her perform her routine.

Her routine was pretty good! I hope I can perform the way she did.

Alright, my turn. I took a deep breath and saluted. I did my kip, cast handstands, and now my pak salto.

It all happened so fast! I felt my hands grab the bar and felt my body go into my cast handstand and then turn to go back to the higher bar. I did it. I DID IT! Wow. This mock meet is going great! I wish it was the real Meet though. I stuck my double back tuck dismount, and walked off and gave Coach Mary and hug. I whispered thank you for everything you've done, to her and she smiled at me. Annie gave me a big hug when I approached her and then eventually Via, Arden, and Katie collapsed on me.
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Now it's vault. My yurchenko tuck has gotten a lot better. I'm not falling as much as I use to, anyway. Katie went up first and did her vault with a few steps backwards. We clapped and saw Coach Mary giving her tips for next time. Annie went up next and took one step forward. Coach Mary gave her a little side hug and giving her tips as well. I couldn't say anything to her, it was my turn.

I saluted to the judges and started to go for it. It happened so fast too! It was literally a blur. All I know is that I landed it and took two small steps backwards. I was just happy that I landed it and not on my face!
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Now it's Beam, the WORST event for me. I was so nervous. Thank god I'm last, I thought. But that can be bad too. Everyone will be watching you because you just failed! Ugh. I have to snap out of it. My pass haven't been good at all.... as long as I land it then I'm good.

All of the coral girls have landed it! Not one fallen! Gosh the pressure. I do really bad under pressure... come on Steph, wake up and just do it!!

I saluted and got on the beam. Here. Goes. Nothing.

This time, everything went in slow motion. My hands for the back handspring slipped a little because I was shaking so badly. My back layout step out... that's something different. My right foot hit the beam really hard on the side and then down I went.

I had to get back up, no matter how much it hurt. Even if I wanted to crawl up into a little ball and hide for forever. Even if I wanted to cry till there was river in the gym. I had to get back up and finish it.

I got back up and tried to finish it. I hesitating on the dismount. What if it hurt when I land? Or don't land? I had to do my round off full twist tuck. I went ahead and did it.

When I landed, I fell automatically. I just wanted to crawl up and go hide in the closet. I got up slowly and saluted to finish. I ran over to Coach Mary and just wanted to stay in her hug forever. Just hide me from the world and embarrassment.

The thing is, my foot really hurt. I had my right foot off the ground one centimeter. Coach Mary seemed to understand because I was there for about a minute until my crying stopped. I already missed too much gymnastics, I can't tell anyone about what really happened on the beam. I looked up at Coach Mary with my tear-stained face. She told all the coral girls to leave us two alone. "No, we're not. We're staying right here," Annie said. I gave a little smile. Everyone else nodded. They really do care about me.
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"Are you okay?" Annie finally spoke. Annie, Katie, and I were walking over to Katie's car. We're going for a sleepover. "I'm fine," I mumbled, not looking up. I was so embarrassed. "You can tell us. You're our friend. You can tell us anything," Katie told me. I stopped walking. I don't know if I should tell them...