Saudade // c.h.

ten

-Chapter Ten-

The next week had came by almost instantly and by the end of it, I was quite utterly shocked. Calum and I had spoken on countless occasions about what had occurred to us that specific night and we were both confused about we quite actually 'were.'

Calum and I just finally decided on a conclusion that we should just look past that 'romantic event' and act like it never happened but, in the back of my mind I knew that neither Calum or I could ever look at each other without thinking about what happened between us.

I felt as if something clicked when I kissed Calum and I feel like he felt it to but I was never actually positive. But even if he felt it too, I knew that we would never become a 'thing' because both Calum and I weren't quite looking for romantic interests. However, Calum and I still spent many afternoons together regardless of the past events that had recently took place between us.

Today in fact, was one of those afternoons and Calum and I were both sitting on a park bench lost in conversation.

"Did you ever love somebody?" Calum asked me. I looked into his eyes and narrowed mine slightly, "what do you mean?" I questioned. 

"I mean did you ever have feelings for somebody." Calum explained.

"Yeah, Once. His name was Mathew. But, it wasn't really exactly anything special. We both kind of just decided that we didn't have feelings for each other anymore. Except well, it was more like he didn't have feelings for me anymore. But, I still loved him a lot and I didn't really get past him for a while until a little bit ago." I sighed thinking about my ex. 

"I had someone too." Calum gulped.

"I hope it's not rude of me asking what happened to her." I said.

Calum shook his head and flashed me a small smile, "no it's okay. She just kind of disapeared from my life really suddenly, she was mad at me like really mad at me for something I did and I wouldn't blame her because what I did wasn't acceptable at all but, I did it and as much as I wish I could change everything I can't because once you do something there's no going back."

"What do you mean she left?" I asked. 

"she died, she-um killed herself I guess because that night I think like a week after our little 'fight' she stopped talking to me as much as I apologized and apologized she didn't want to hear it and I guess what I did added to her little list of reasons to die because apparently I was the only thing keeping her alive and I was gone now so she shot herself." Calum said stuttering a bit here and then.

"I'm sorry-what was her name?" I asked sympathetically resting my hand on his knee and giving him a small smile.

"Annette." 

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[A/N] : ah omg annette and calum were a thing. asdfghjkl!!

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