Saudade // c.h.

eleven

-Chapter Eleven-

"Annette." Calum spoke softly.

My eyes widened in shock and I felt as if my heart had dropped down into my stomach.

"Y-you have t-to go." I stuttered.

"Fay?" Calum said his expression becoming a little tense.

"You have to go."  I repeated.

Calum shook his head in disbelief as an angered expression washed over his face.

"I opened up to you and now your telling me to go." He said.

I nodded and gave him an apologetic look.

"You know, I have no idea what the hell happened to you to make you this way but I sure as hell dont like it. Please stop calling me. Please stop speaking to me. Please leave me alone."  Calum spat.

The words struck me hard and I felt as if I was about to cry.

Calum turned around and walked briskly out of sight leaving me hurt and trying to figure out what had just occurred.

Calum was in love with Annette. Calum hated me and there was nothing I could do about it.

A feeling of guilt and disbelief washed over me and I felt as if I was about to throw up.

I shook the feeling away and began walking back towards home. 

I shouldn't have pushed Calum away, I shouldn't have shut him out. This is why I don't have anybody. Except Emma.

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I sat in the small book store awaiting Emma's arrival and finally after what felt like a decade, she arrived looking elegant and beautiful. Her red hair was pulled into a neat bun that rested nicely on the top of her head and she was wearing a little yellow sundress that fell just above her knees.

She greeted me with a warm smile and pulled me into a hug.

"Long time, no see." She smiled as she sat down beside me. "What got you to finally call me?"

"This boy I liked-" I started, "I just found out he dated Annette before she died and I freaked out and well sent him away and now he hates me." 

Emma raised her eyebrows trying to digest what I just said before beginning to speak, "The thing is this boy, he understands your pain and not only would he be able to help you but you would be able to help him. Fay, I know you pushed him away out of panic you need to apologize, you can't push people away like that. When people come into your life, happy memories take place and happy memories allow you to forget. Forgetting is exactly what you need." 

I narrowed my eyes at Emma and took a deep breath. "he said he never wants to see me again, how can I do anything about that?" I asked

"If you actually need him and he actually needs you, he'll come around. They always do darling, trust me." Emma winked.

I rolled my eyes, "and you would know that, how?" 

"just trust me, I know what I'm saying. This Calum boy of yours will come back." Emma laughed.

"I hope so." I sighed.

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A week came by and not a word was spoken between Calum and I. Occasionally, I would run into him at the coffee shop but he wouldn't even look at me in those situations. 

And as much as I hated to admit it, Emma was right because I needed Calum. Annette had just about clogged up my whole head and she was the only person I could think about along with Calum of course.

I hoped he would come around and I hoped Emma was right.

But, what I did to Calum was unforgivable. I shut him out just as he opened himself up to me and I wouldn't be surprised if he never spoke to me again.

After days of hoping Calum would end up on my door step requesting to speak to me, he never did and that's when I decided it was my turn to be on his doorstep.

So that's pretty much how I ended up here hesitating to ring Calum's door bell.

After about five minutes I took a deep breath and pressed my finger against the door bell. The door slowly opened up. But, it wasn't Calum at the door. It was a woman who I assumed was his mother.

"Hello, um. May I speak to Calum?" I requested.

"Calum isn't available at the moment." Mrs. Hood spoke.

"Can I just please-" I begged but Mrs. Hood cut me off.

"Calum is in the hospital." 

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[A/N]: oooh cliff hanger. okay sorry for my lack of updating, it's pretty much my fault and I don't really have an excuse I just didn't really know what to write.

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