Lauren Jauregui Imagines

-I Can't Even-

Y/N POV:

I think we're falling apart. I mean, she's been distance. I hardly see her anymore. She's always busy or out with her friends. I don't know what to do anymore but think we're falling apart. She's not my first kiss but she's the kiss that matter. She's not my first love but the love matters. I love her so much I'll literally do anything for her. I really don't know what I'll do without her. I'll probably die in a hole with all of these feelings I have for her and will forever will.

What can I do?

"Well, talk to her, communication is the key for everything, mostly."

My best friend, Sam tells me. Sam has pretty blue ocean eyes that light up her smile. Sliver lip ring with tattoos almost covering up her whole body. Has gray-white hair and thinks she's the only one that can hit it off. She's a beautiful and kinda hearted soul. Just don't get on her bad side. 

"Where is she now?"

"Probably out with her friends again, I don't know."

"Look, you and I, get out of this house right now and go look for her."

My eye brows raise with a small smile spreading across my face.

"Really?"

She nods standing up from the bed with her hand right in front of me so I can take it.

"Really, now lets go."

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"Where the hell is she?"

Sam mumbled annoyed. I narrowed my eye brows looking around the park but can't find her anywhere.

"Maybe she's already at home."

I said as I continued to look around.

"No, Lucy just post a picture on Instagram of her and Lauren and some other people at the park just a minute ago."

Sam tells me before disappearing into the restrooms. I sighed running fingers threw my hair in frustration.

Where are you Lauren?

"Lauren come on, she doesn't have to know. I mean we done it many times before, what's wrong now?"

I hear from inside the boy's restrooms. She's in the boy's restrooms? Why? I walk closer and lean my ear against the door to hear more clear.

"Luis, I-I just can't, I'm already hurting her by not talking to her."

I hear Lauren tell Luis.

"You cheated on her already, what's the fucking difference?"

My heart drops down to my stomach. She cheated on me? This has to be a dream. I pinch myself but I'm not waking up. What the fuck?

"Just one more time, I'm pretty sure it wouldn't hurt nobody."

I then hear kissing and moans making me start to cry. I lean off the door and start to walk away. Why would she do this? What did I do? Fuck me for falling for her, I'm such a fool.

"Hey, y/n, where you going!"

I hear Sam call from behind me. I continue to walk but was stop by her. She grab my wrist turning me around.

"dude wha-hey, wait, why are you crying?"

I shook my head and hug her whispering,

"Can we go home, please."

"But-"

"Please."

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"You going to tell me what's wrong now?"

I sighed softly as I laid my head against my pillow feeling hurt and sad. I had so many questions for Lauren that needed to be answer. Like why? Why did she cheat on me? What did I do?

"Y/-"

The door flew open making me look towards the door to see Lauren. I sat up slowly wiping my tears away.

"What's going on here?"

Lauren asked frowning at me noticing that I've been crying.

"Why is she crying?"

"I don't know, why don't you tell me."

Sam glared at Lauren. Lauren walked up to me kneeling in front of me putting a hand on my cheek but I slap it away.

"Don't touch me."

Lauren looked taken back at the movement and frowned deeply.

"Y/n, w-what's wrong."

I take a deep breath and begin,

"What did I do to deserve this?"

"What?"

"Is he like, better than me? Does he fuck you more better than I can? I mean, I heard you moaning, practically screaming his name."

Her face drops.

"All I wanted from you is your love but what do I get? I get pity and lies. You've been avoiding me so you could go fuck him behind my back...."

I could see tears peaking out in the corner of Lauren eyes.

"I gave you everything Lauren, everything. Love, my soul, my spirit, my time! Did I even cross your mind as you guys fuck? I can't even hear your side! You fucking fooled me! I just can't believe you would do this to me. Am I not good enough? Like, why Lauren! Why?"

She stayed quite for a moment as tears run down her cheeks.

"I'm sorry. I just-look, he's not worth it, please believe me when I say I love you cause I love you with all that I am. You are everything and will forever. I just wasn't thinking..."

"Just leave Lauren. I don't wanna see you ever again."

"Y/n.."

"You better leave or else I'll beat your ass."

I hear Sam threaten Lauren. I wanted to stop her but Lauren deserves this. What she did was pity and full of lies. It hurt so much all I wanna do is just die.

Lauren sighs softly standing up turning around walking towards the door opening it but stop looking over her shoulder to me.

"Remember, I love you and will always will."

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A/N:😊